Discussion do you fear death?

[_Minsk]

i actually can't wait to go for it, i believe it will be very peaceful and relieving, just thinking about it feels blissful

 

[Red]

It's coming sooner or later, everyone faces it ultimately

 

[Wayfaerer]

Death is nothing to fear. I fear coming back and things playing out exactly as they had before.

 

[Life_and_Death]

i fear the nothingness that follows death. but right now i feel at peace with it

 

[George81]

I fear the actual process of dying. If it hurts, or SI kicks in. I worry about the panic of the last few minutes, if it takes longer than anticipated, if something goes wrong and you end up a vegetable. I plan to CTB this week, maybe tuesday or wednesday, I am worried if I don;t do it right and every0one ends up knowing what I did, if I end up paralysed or in constant pain, the waiting is excrutiating x

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Yes. Looking back, it's only taken a few weeks to get from being ready to gather supplies for it to being anxious because it can't come soon enough. I'm at peace now and have reconciled anything I used to believe with what my reality is. Humans are resilient (if only I were) and family and friends will get on with life despite the pain this will cause. The unknown will bring fear at the moment of execution (for lack of a better word LOL) but if I can push past it I'll have accomplished something once in my life and actually followed through to realise a goal. I can't wait.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Death is nothing to fear. I fear coming back and things playing out exactly as they had before.

lol
that would be hell. But maybe there is something else apart from hell. But we've already had a long discussion about this elsewhere..

I'm worried about the final moments before death.
Will there be pain, will I be panicking, will time subjectively dilate to makes minutes and seconds seem like hours or days...?

 

[Dead beat dad]

i actually can't wait to go for it, i believe it will be very peaceful and relieving, just thinking about it feels blissful

In some respects, relative to the infinity of time and space, death and fear and every other emotion and function of everything is irrelevant.
Like a lot of folk I'm tired of living, but scared of dying.
Love to you my brother
DBD

 

[esse_est_percipi]

In some respects, relative to the infinity of time and space, death and fear and every other emotion and function of everything is irrelevant.
Like a lot of folk I'm tired of living, but scared of dying.
Love to you my brother
DBD

Hi, I've read a lot of your posts and you seem like a good guy.
Do you mind me asking if there is a method you have chosen, or do you just have suicidal ideation in general?

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

not really. i mean, survival instinct and all that makes me somewhat afraid of dying, but if i think about it rationally and listen to my head rather than my gut, i don't fear death. we all end up six feet under, anyways, so there's no point in fearing the inevitable. i'm more afraid of a painful death than anything.

 

[rundschlinge78]

I do not fear death. I want to be dead. No regrets. Cannot miss anything. I do worry about dying and pain, which is why I prefer to die in control. I want to kill myself. Get it over with.
I only worry about the pain caused to those left behind...

 

[Deleted member 18655]

I just remembered the light bulb moment for me. I was just playing the "Countries, Cities, Towns and Suburbs" game:

I've lived in seven or eight different countries in many parts of the world. Each time, I only researched the bare minimum of the culture/country/city so that the culture shock (which I love) would be real and force me to experience life, not tourism. I had to pack up everything I owned in a few large suitcases and move to a new country, a new apartment, for a new job. I had to meet people, find food, try new foods, play lots of charades until I learned the languages. Nothing was familiar except for the other expats and I stayed away from them so I could meet locals. I think I'm getting ready for the same thing when I ctb. There's a lot of unknowns and uncertainties, it's a big decision - the biggest I've ever made and I need to go because there's nothing for me in my current situation. It's all the same. My bus is just taking me to my next adventure...

 

[softfuzzyman]

I'm actually very afraid of an uncertain death that could come at any time. CTB is comforting because I'd be aware of it and mentally prepared since I'm doing it on purpose and it's planned.

 

[Ayvoia]

I don't fear death itself, as I believe it's the same as before we are born.. Nothingness, non existence.

However, the method of dying is something that can and is what scares people.. And how it would affect those around us.

 

[Joey]

I fear the actual process of dying. If it hurts, or SI kicks in. I worry about the panic of the last few minutes, if it takes longer than anticipated, if something goes wrong and you end up a vegetable. I plan to CTB this week, maybe tuesday or wednesday, I am worried if I don;t do it right and every0one ends up knowing what I did, if I end up paralysed or in constant pain, the waiting is excrutiating x

I hope you make a goodbye thread, so we can bid you farewell

I just remembered the light bulb moment for me. I was just playing the "Countries, Cities, Towns and Suburbs" game:

I've lived in seven or eight different countries in many parts of the world. Each time, I only researched the bare minimum of the culture/country/city so that the culture shock (which I love) would be real and force me to experience life, not tourism. I had to pack up everything I owned in a few large suitcases and move to a new country, a new apartment, for a new job. I had to meet people, find food, try new foods, play lots of charades until I learned the languages. Nothing was familiar except for the other expats and I stayed away from them so I could meet locals. I think I'm getting ready for the same thing when I ctb. There's a lot of unknowns and uncertainties, it's a big decision - the biggest I've ever made and I need to go because there's nothing for me in my current situation. It's all the same. My bus is just taking me to my next adventure...

Who really knows If Death is really the end. Like you said, it can be another next adventure.

 

[Busoccupant]

For me being death is just like being in 1750. Can you remember anything about some day previous to your birth? The same very feeling is what awaits you when leaving this life. So no, no fear at all.

 

[Nymph]

If I think about it too much I get anxious but I hope it's just going to feel like eternal sleep. The thought of my conciousness being completely gone and all my memories and thoughts are just gone and there's nothing more to see is scary

 

[ladolcemorte]

I am not afraid of being dead, or of the afterlife (or lack thereof). I am, however, afraid of the pain just before dying...

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Now I think about it, the only real fear I have about death is that it doesn't come soon enough.

 

[wanttodie]

I do not fear death

 

[GonnaGoBye]

No. Death is always something that fascinates me.

 

[Joey]

Somewhere between. It sucks that I was born and now I have to experience this shit and do it. I'm not afraid of the dying process but more of what happens afterwards. I guess it's fear of the unknown.

 

[Dead beat dad]

Hi, I've read a lot of your posts and you seem like a good guy.
Do you mind me asking if there is a method you have chosen, or do you just have suicidal ideation in general?

Hi friend, thanks, that is kind of you to say so. As far as methods go, I flip flop between SN and hanging. Ideation does come and go to be honest, I was on a bit of a streak last few weeks where I was able to keep the demons (as it were) under control, but like all things they returned eventually. Peace friend.
DBD