Do you ever wish you didn’t abort a failed attempt?

[wistfulness]

When I was 16, I had everything I needed in my bag to hang myself. I knew no one would come searching for me. Right now I just really really wish that I wouldn't have been such a pussy back then. I wish I was somehow clairvoyant and knew about the huge ass downward spiral that my life was going to continue to go in. I wish I would've saved myself from all this pain. I wish I didn't have to relearn how to live, how to have healthy relationships, how to be vulnerable. It would be so much easier for everyone if I was already gone.

 

[rozeske]

I never decided enough to attempt but I wish I was never hopeful enough to think my life would get better. If I had the guts to leave early on I would have saved my self and others the pain.

 

[mortuarymary]

No, it wasn't the right time.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

No I am more ready now

 

[almondmilk]

my biggest regret is that i didn't took enough pills that time, i would've been finally free from the suffering

 

[nozomu]

I feel stupid every time I abort.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I had a shotgun locked and loaded, just about to do it and my dad walks in, smacks me in the head and yanks the gun away, told me to stop that shit.

Nothing ever came up again, thankfully now im leeching as much as i can from him because he knows now what ill do to him if he disobeys me, he's my property.

Dumb poverty old fart can rot in hell

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

I should have died around age 12 back when I first tried hanging. It would have spared me so much annoyance and unwanted adulthood.