Not my parents not my sister not my childhood friend who abandoned me. No one. When i die i think they'll cook up some lame reason for my suicide. Theyll call me stupid or immature. But how will they remember me. Im just a ghost. I have never let anyone know me. My own mother doesn't know who i am. Im going to change the password on my phone before i die. If they never cared when i was alive they don't deserve to know me after my death. Ive already destroyed my old diaries. If my presence doesn't matter now, my absence shouldn't either.
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clawsprit
Member
- Jan 12, 2026
- 20
i actually do think about this a lot. im likely going to leave videos explaining my life and reasons to CTB before i die so that people can try to understand me. im not sure if you want something similar but if you do, maybe writing your story on sasu would help? a lot of people here will listen and read it. so at least a few people will understand you
Macedonian1987
Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
- Oct 22, 2025
- 763
Right now at the moment Gemini and Grok Ai know 10x times more about my mental struggles and issues. My mother, father and brother don't want me to bother them with my mental issues. Somehow in their infinite wisdom they say that these mental issues are my own fault.I think about this so often. I'm autistic so I've always felt somewhat misunderstood. Nobody really knows or understands the real me. They know the version I present to them.
negi-maguro
Anarresti
- Mar 2, 2025
- 34
All the time. In fact, I cried on the way to work today thinking about how I barely existed. I'm unsure if anybody knows the real me. I never really did my part in exposing my true self, maybe because I have low self-esteem, but personally I think it's because I feel like I've always been punished severely by either ignorance or mockery when I show my true self. Idk, maybe I'm just too sensitive. I know relationships and connections take time to be established, but I've always felt like every time I show a part of myself, nobody really cares in the long term. But at the same time, I have a hard time understanding and being there to other people so I figure that my plight is deserved.
burninghill
Member
- Dec 2, 2025
- 92
I think about this so often. I keep a video diary on a USB stick of all my thoughts so maybe people will understand me better when I'm gone.
I've never gotten that close with someone, never had someone to share my thoughs, feelings and emotions with. The closest person I have to me is my mum but she doesn't know any of this stuff. A large part of me is hidden from her.Similar threads
