Anyone else also compulsively do this or do it more than they should? I look at them flabbergasted. I am a shadow of the woman I once was. It's surrealle to look back...
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jodes2
Hello people ❤️
- Aug 28, 2022
- 7,736
I look at them and wonder what happened, I was quite a bit happier as a kid. But I also look at it and wonder why I was born at all. It would have been easier if I was never born, or died young
yuno
person
- Sep 10, 2022
- 42
I avoid looking at myself or any photos of myself. The older ones especially. I'm my worst bully and viewing myself triggers even more abusive thoughts. Rarely I can look at myself and think "why am I looking so cute?" Then I must counteract those rare thoughts with all the horrible things. I know someone who has the opposite problem. They take 50+ pics of themself a day because that's how their loathing works. I'd surely ctb far sooner having to face myself that much. It's funny in a way.
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
Yes- Hard to imagine it's the same person… And looking into their eyes thinking they had no idea it would come to this
I think that. I do it with memories too like thinking of when I was in 6th form, ( highschool for those who say that,) thinking wow you have no idea that at 18 yrs old you will take medication that will ruin your life. I am now terrified of what is around the corner because of it.
rationaltake
I'm rocking it - in another universe
- Sep 28, 2021
- 2,707
I couldn't stand it so got rid of every single photo - with or without me in it. Weren't many. I have terrible photos of me on a couple of official documents.
Lonerzepam
O'lord! I Have My Doubts
- Sep 2, 2022
- 619
Yeah it's fucking heartbreaking...what have I become 
thebunny
be what they fear.
- Aug 19, 2022
- 227
not really. i refuse to look at old photos of myself because it just reminds me of how happy i once was and that i could never achieve that again no matter how hard i try. i refuse because i don't wanna be reminded of the what could've beens.
I try not to. I've had to tell YouTube not to recommend my own channel so I don't see my thumbnails.
I actually don't have too much pics at all. I was never be a considered as a good looking/ cute/ adorable girl even when I was child or young girl. My mother always told me I was a super ugly person and don't deserve to be loved by anyone or any man.
Yeh I did recently and I also tend to think about the past way too much. I had an idyllic childhood but I still wasn't happy being me.
I can really relate. I get so upset looking back at photos. You can see the life in my eyes and the happiness. I don't know who she is anyone or what happened to her. But yeah , here if you want to chat :)
ncmxm
Experienced
- Jun 9, 2021
- 232
ojinzo
Specialist
- Feb 21, 2022
- 304
I sometimes look at childhood pictures. Me sitting on Santa's knee my first Christmas. My sister and I dressed in our Halloween costumes. Birthday parties with cake, ice cream, and balloons. To name just three. All taken long before most reading this were born. A very Edenic time in my life. I suppose one of the best parts was having no inking of the evils in the world or what the future had in store for me.
Littlewittlelight
Specialist
- Sep 3, 2022
- 347
I lost my Google account in March and I don't have many photos of myself left on my own device but I used to look a quite often to see I was happier or unaware that it would be this way for me.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,248
I doubt that any even exists, thankfully. I don't want to think about the past at all, I've never wanted to be here and I have no positive memories of existing. Life could never be worth living to me.
Fktw0rld
An end with suffering > Suffering without an end
- Aug 29, 2022
- 404
Nah, I hate that shit. Especially when someone else sends me or shows me an old photo like, "remember this?!" with a big stupid smile. I remember that day, yeah. But I will never relive a moment similar to that or be the person in that photo you're standing next to again.
Zegers
Enlightened
- Dec 15, 2021
- 1,758
home
Member
- Sep 10, 2022
- 77
When i see pictures of myself when I was younger or when I see those tiktoks about people's younger self, I feel so guilty. I feel like I somehow failed this kid. People are always like "what would you do if you met your younger self", and all I could do is say "I'm sorry". Im sorry for where we are. Im sorry for who we've become. Im sorry that youll have to go through what I did. Im sorry.
I'm on this forum mostly to find a "solution" (I'm stuck with SN for now, can't find it in my stupid country tho), but i randomly stumdled across this thread and your comment legit brought tears to my eyes, because I had never thought about my situation in this way before: I really let down that nice and happy kid which supposed to have a great life.
𖣴 nadia 𖣴
...member...
- Dec 15, 2021
- 252
Not really, but on occasion when someone shows me a photo of myself as a young child, I can't comprehend how or why I was smiling for the camera despite everything that was going on behind closed doors.
Hangnail
Member
- Jul 14, 2022
- 85
I avoid looking at pictures of myself. I'm to ugly so i avoid cameras as much as possible
Lily (Osako)
Everything all at once
- Jul 30, 2022
- 381
Yes. I used to think I was so fat. I'd give anything to be that size again.
I often wonder what I'd look like now if I had taken better care of myself and didn't want to grow up so fast.
I hope we get a redo if we so choose so I can see the outcome if I make different choices in my life.
I'm just curious.
I often wonder what I'd look like now if I had taken better care of myself and didn't want to grow up so fast.
I hope we get a redo if we so choose so I can see the outcome if I make different choices in my life.
I'm just curious.
