Volatile
God
- Jun 18, 2018
- 1,286
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,339
I've isolated myself to the point that I literally have no connections. The resulting loneliness has become one of several factors in my decision to ctb.
Clover
Experienced
- Aug 23, 2018
- 268
I still connect with people. I'm very lucky to have people who are supportive of my choice. In the last couple of days I will have to avoid talking to anyone as I can't give away my time/location etc but I also like being alone and often don't socialise so no one will be worried.
SunSetsForever
Member
- Apr 6, 2018
- 34
I been fortunate enough to have strong connections to people in my life. I don't think Suicide is always caused by social isolation, although that can make it much worse. My Suicidal ideation stems from feeling trapped in my life. I hate the rat race, I hate faking being happy because of certain accomplishment or material possessions, and I hate having no way to live my life the exact way I want with no compromises. I hate all the contradictions to life, and I believe the bad far outweighs the good. And I hate how unfair everything is. I hate seeing people suffering. It saddens me to know I'm powerless to help. It depresses me to know I'm more fortunate than others, and I dislike those who condecend and attribute their success to anything other than luck. Surprisingly, these beliefs have made me want to be kinder toward others, but they've made me very unhappy despite being someone fortunate. Makes everything seem like a joke; a game I do not want to participate in.
Trashcan
Trash
- Aug 31, 2018
- 1,234
Pretty much yes. My parents love me but that's it. I don't really have any friends.
MEoDP
Specialist
- Sep 2, 2018
- 347
It certainly makes the process a whole lot easier. Less people will be hurt by your passing,and less chances of someone trying to foil your attempt.
Smilla
Visionary
- Apr 30, 2018
- 2,549
Deadinside24
Experienced
- Aug 7, 2018
- 245
I don't really have much of a relationship with my family either. I've just come to accept they don't really understand me. Friends that I had for years and used to hang out with several times during the week I hardly talk to, if at all. I have my girlfriend which I talk to almost daily and a couple of coworker friends but other than that, I don't have much at all.
PeakyBlinder
Member
- Sep 6, 2018
- 36
No not by a long shot. They were one of the reasons I couldn't do it 2 days ago. Have too many caring people around me.
I haven't told anyone and not going to. That is the first lesson I learned from this community. Once you let someone know, they start lecturing you.
I haven't told anyone and not going to. That is the first lesson I learned from this community. Once you let someone know, they start lecturing you.
I can't and don't want to connect with people. Sometimes I wish I could, I wonder how would it feel like to have a normal social life. But then again I don't really want that.
Schizoid is such a wonderful disorder...
Schizoid is such a wonderful disorder...
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,446
Yes. I have absolutely no one in my life other than my parents because I live with them but I barely even socialize with them.
I've got no one. It's needed but it hurts sometimes.
PatKat
Meh
- Aug 9, 2018
- 1,025
I isolate from everything I do not even go out anymore. I just stay at home all day... :(
i'm right there with you. i have one friend left. she's out of state and struggling to cope with a world of her own problems. i wish i could be there for her. everyone else has left me or i've left them. that includes all of my family but for my parents as well. i've been falling apart for years. it's easier on all of this way.
Ashpac
Lost and always will be.
- Jul 22, 2018
- 795
Same. I just hammer youtube and netflix mostly. Boring as fuck my schedule.
same here. and i care for my dying father who lives with me. basically, i only leave the house for doctor appointments.
PatKat
Meh
- Aug 9, 2018
- 1,025
I got rid of my netflix I watched everything I wanted to see on it. :/ now i just sit here waiting it seems
Ashpac
Lost and always will be.
- Jul 22, 2018
- 795
Wantingpeace
Wizard
- Aug 16, 2018
- 672
I'm so sorry for those who are isolated and that is causing more suffering. I'm isolated becsuse I'm too ill to even care about socialising. I do have my family who live close by. And i feel so sad about leaving them.
Ashpac
Lost and always will be.
- Jul 22, 2018
- 795
I feel sad about leaving mine but then again, Id rather be happy than live this life and be miserable.
PatKat
Meh
- Aug 9, 2018
- 1,025
Ashpac
Lost and always will be.
- Jul 22, 2018
- 795
Sounds like youre stuck in limbo.
If you ever need someone to talk too, im available. PM me.
FadedMemory
Student
- Aug 5, 2018
- 133
I do. I literally have no friends but I don't plan on ctb till next year due to living with my parents. But I honestly don't mind the isolation anymore, that way I'm secure that no one hurts me and I hurt no one.
Ashpac
Lost and always will be.
- Jul 22, 2018
- 795
I think we all want that, not to be hurt or lied to by shitty scumbag humans.
but there's a lot of new stuff that's come out recently...at least in the US...some of it is excellent
NotMery
Member
- Sep 4, 2018
- 6
I used to think a lot about How my closer family And friends would feel about It but some time ago I isolated myself completely but that draws too much attention, so now I try to Interact the minimum with my close family And friends. After that isolation time I don't really Care much about How they'll feel, not even my parents, I just know they'll get over It and be Fine.
The only ones I Care are my brother and sister. We are very close and They're on important moments in their life. My sister is in the Middle of a doc and my brother is finishing High School, about to try to enter in uni. I don't wanna mess their lives rn, I am Afraid that my suicide Will mess with their professional lives in a definitive way. I really don't wanna their lives to be fucked like Mine. It's not Fair with them...
The only ones I Care are my brother and sister. We are very close and They're on important moments in their life. My sister is in the Middle of a doc and my brother is finishing High School, about to try to enter in uni. I don't wanna mess their lives rn, I am Afraid that my suicide Will mess with their professional lives in a definitive way. I really don't wanna their lives to be fucked like Mine. It's not Fair with them...
