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Volatile
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- Jun 18, 2018
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I been fortunate enough to have strong connections to people in my life. I don't think Suicide is always caused by social isolation, although that can make it much worse. My Suicidal ideation stems from feeling trapped in my life. I hate the rat race, I hate faking being happy because of certain accomplishment or material possessions, and I hate having no way to live my life the exact way I want with no compromises. I hate all the contradictions to life, and I believe the bad far outweighs the good. And I hate how unfair everything is. I hate seeing people suffering. It saddens me to know I'm powerless to help. It depresses me to know I'm more fortunate than others, and I dislike those who condecend and attribute their success to anything other than luck. Surprisingly, these beliefs have made me want to be kinder toward others, but they've made me very unhappy despite being someone fortunate. Makes everything seem like a joke; a game I do not want to participate in.for a successful suicide?
My phone is the same way.Odd having only 1 phone contact.
This.I've isolated myself to the point that I literally have no connections. The resulting loneliness has become one of several factors in my decision to ctb.
i'm right there with you. i have one friend left. she's out of state and struggling to cope with a world of her own problems. i wish i could be there for her. everyone else has left me or i've left them. that includes all of my family but for my parents as well. i've been falling apart for years. it's easier on all of this way.I've isolated myself to the point that I literally have no connections. The resulting loneliness has become one of several factors in my decision to ctb.
I isolate from everything I do not even go out anymore. I just stay at home all day... :(
same here. and i care for my dying father who lives with me. basically, i only leave the house for doctor appointments.Same. I just hammer youtube and netflix mostly. Boring as fuck my schedule.
I got rid of my netflix I watched everything I wanted to see on it. :/ now i just sit here waiting it seemsSame. I just hammer youtube and netflix mostly. Boring as fuck my schedule.
I got rid of my netflix I watched everything I wanted to see on it. :/ now i just sit here waiting it seems
I'm so sorry for those who are isolated and that is causing more suffering. I'm isolated becsuse I'm too ill to even care about socialising. I do have my family who live close by. And i feel so sad about leaving them.
Just waiting I dont do anything I just sit here.Waiting to CTB do you mean ?
Just waiting I dont do anything I just sit here.
I do. I literally have no friends but I don't plan on ctb till next year due to living with my parents. But I honestly don't mind the isolation anymore, that way I'm secure that no one hurts me and I hurt no one.
but there's a lot of new stuff that's come out recently...at least in the US...some of it is excellentI got rid of my netflix I watched everything I wanted to see on it. :/ now i just sit here waiting it seems