Do you cry?

[Sailfisher]

Do you often find yourself crying?

 

[Morphinekiss]

I used to never cry, but now any little thing just makes me break down. It's ridiculous.

 

[Empty Smile]

As far as breaking down and sobbing, no. I keep myself from doing that.

Now tears on the other hand, will hit me at anytime, with or without warning. It's like my mind hits a low point and it triggers it.

 

[Soul]

Not very often, but if I start I sometimes cry all day

 

[blanketyblk]

too bloody often :-( not for being in any pain or anything like that. just from the memories of people i miss.

 

[not_a_robot]

Not too much any more. I tear up really easy during pms time but not excessively.
As a kid though, sometimes just thinking about the hopelessness of a future, of knowing I would have to either live a long horrible life or kill myself, I would sob hysterically for days and days, like I was a little broken faucet. Just knowing I would never feel comfortable anywhere.

Now I'm properly cynical and have weed, thank god.
Now when I start to cry I just laugh at myself and go "there goes some oxytocin!"
Someone is blasting blue oyster cult outside,
Don't Fuck The Reaper.

"A wise man weeps neither for the living, nor for the dead."
I used to want this tattoo.
Would've been prettier in Sanskrit.

 

[deltahead]

never. the last time i cried was two years ago, during my first and only time getting drunk 2 years ago. i recorded an incoherent 40-something minute video of me crying and whimpering, alone in an abandoned building. even if i feel like crying, it seems to me i'm forcing myself to cry just to say i did it. haven't since. haven't for years before that event. no matter how much i feel like crying or try to do it, it's never going to feel real, probably because it isn't. why force it?

 

[crimea_river]

I all but stopped crying at quite a young age (about 7 iirc). I think I came to the conclusion at that age that existence was supposed to be obnoxious and that crying about it wasn't really getting me anywhere. I suppose I saw it as a sign of weakness too, still do to some extent.

Obviously, I've cried since that age, but it has to be something pretty significant that triggers it.

 

[AngelGirl]

I used to never cry, but now any little thing just makes me break down. It's ridiculous.

I'm exactly like that.

 

[blanketyblk]

I used to never cry, but now any little thing just makes me break down. It's ridiculous.

I'm exactly like that.

i see crying as a true emotion. it means we still have some kind of feeling in our hearts, and that we are not entirely dead yet. at least thats the way i view it. but I'm a big sook :-)

 

[Morphinekiss]

i see crying as a true emotion. it means we still have some kind of feeling in our hearts, and that we are not entirely dead yet. at least thats the way i view it. but I'm a big sook :-)

Honestly it started when they found my liver tumors. It was like the sudden knowledge that something besides myself may kill me, wrecked me. And they want to wait 4 months before deciding to biopsy or not and so I just walk around every day like "I could be slowly dying". One would think I'd be happy, but these weren't my terms damnit.

 

[Skathon]

Only, hm, reflexively: if my eyes or nerves are damaged.
Though, the regular intake of hard psychotropic substances once made me weep rather often, no less often erasing the memory afterwards.

 

[not_a_robot]

Honestly it started when they found my liver tumors. It was like the sudden knowledge that something besides myself may kill me, wrecked me. And they want to wait 4 months before deciding to biopsy or not and so I just walk around every day like "I could be slowly dying". One would think I'd be happy, but these weren't my terms damnit.

lol. You should see the looks on Doctors' faces when they solemnly tell me I probably have cancer and I say "No need for further diagnostics, a terminal disease would be the best thing that could happen to me."
It's not cancer, it's something I can treat myself and doctors never would have figured it out in a million years, so I'm actually pretty healthy. But I believed my death was imminent for years because of those twats. Ten years I kept waiting to get sick and die. Now I can fix the problem and live, but can't decide if I want to.

 

[blanketyblk]

lol. You should see the looks on Doctors' faces when they solemnly tell me I probably have cancer and I say "No need for further diagnostics, a terminal disease would be the best thing that could happen to me."
It's not cancer, it's something I can treat myself and doctors never would have figured it out in a million years, so I'm actually pretty healthy. But I believed my death was imminent for years because of those twats. Ten years I kept waiting to get sick and die. Now I can fix the problem and live, but can't decide if I want to.

you too much like me, it's scary

I stopped doing mammograms some 15 years ago and should be doing a check up every 6 to 9 months due to previous cancer but i just can't see the point. if it's going to kill me then just hurry up already. At least with cancer i can get morphine, a nice confy bed in hospital and cute nurses to run around and do most of my bidding for me. *a girl can dream, right*

 

[not_a_robot]

you too much like me, it's scary

I stopped doing mammograms some 15 years ago and should be doing a check up every 6 to 9 months due to previous cancer but i just can't see the point. if it's going to kill me then just hurry up already. At least with cancer i can get morphine, a nice confy bed in hospital and cute nurses to run around and do most of my bidding for me. *a girl can dream, right*

I used to dream of the morphine and phenobarbital. "soon, soon...be gone soon..."

 

[Morphinekiss]

you too much like me, it's scary

I stopped doing mammograms some 15 years ago and should be doing a check up every 6 to 9 months due to previous cancer but i just can't see the point. if it's going to kill me then just hurry up already. At least with cancer i can get morphine, a nice confy bed in hospital and cute nurses to run around and do most of my bidding for me. *a girl can dream, right*

Morphine and cute nurses? That I could deal with.

 

[LivingToLong]

Yes I cry. Sometimes for no reason (that I can work out)

 

[Kjo]

I used to never cry, but now any little thing just makes me break down. It's ridiculous.

This... So much this.

 

[blanketyblk]

I used to dream of the morphine and phenobarbital. "soon, soon...be gone soon..."

my mum at the end with the flu, used morphine to drift off. there was nothing else they could do for her and the lungs will filling up. so she decided to start getting morphine injections. 2 hours after they started injecting morphine she drifted off to sleep and 9 hours later she passed away in her sleep. very peaceful and no pain. just gone.

Morphine and cute nurses? That I could deal with.

wait, sounds like i might need to share. bugger! :-)

 

[RM5998]

You know what, BoJack said it better than me:

You know, sometimes I feel like I was born with a leak, and any goodness I started with just slowly spilled out of me, and now it's all gone. And I'll never get it back in me. It's too late. Life is a series of closing doors, isn't it?

Yeah, the emotions are mostly gone... I wish I could cry and relieve my stress, but I can't. All I have is this madness that keeps building up inside me, and no way to comprehend it or let it go.

 

[not_a_robot]

You know what, BoJack said it better than me:

Yeah, the emotions are mostly gone... I wish I could cry and relieve my stress, but I can't. All I have is this madness that keeps building up inside me, and no way to comprehend it or let it go.

That's really all most people use sex for. An excuse to scream out the madness lol.

 

[throwaway123]

I used to cry years ago but then it got so bad I stopped. Now the tears won't come. I've become numb and to be honest it's better that way.
What good does it do to cry? If you know you're going to die by CTB it won't matter if you shed one more tear.
I used to deny the existence of destiny but the older you get the more you start to realize that you never had much of a choice. You can live and chose to live in denial or start taking responsibility for yourself end it or start trying to make things better. Either way you have to take control.

 

[blanketyblk]

That's really all most people use sex for. An excuse to scream out the madness lol.

really? anytime i have sex, my partner is trying to get my mouth somewhere else.. maybe i'm doing it wrong.

 

[not_a_robot]

really? anytime i have sex, my partner is trying to get my mouth somewhere else.. maybe i'm doing it wrong.

lol I'm actually scared to have sex again because I know I'll scream my head off and embarrass myself. It's no way for a woman my age to behave.

 

[Broken Chimera]

Unless it's extreme, I don't cry. I guess I'm just numb now. My emotions are kind of dead now besides anger.

 

[Dead beat dad]

Do you often find yourself crying?

I probably shed some tears once or twice a month. Usually after or during putting my boy to bed.
Peace brothers and sisters
DBD

 

[RM5998]

That's really all most people use sex for. An excuse to scream out the madness lol.

Well, I'm asexual, so that's out of reach.

Nice to know that I'm bound to have to bottle up an amalgamation of thoughts I can't understand for the remainder of my existence.

 

[tomz323]

Personally I cant cry, not anymore. Its strange I feel hollow, like an empty shell.

 

[Pilum Muralis]

Ugh, I cry like I did when I was a damn teenager, but usually I wait until I'm all alone. I had a mental snap this morning, and actually told my husband, sobbing fat ugly hysterical tears "You don't understand, you don't know how I feel!" Then ran to the bedroom all dramatic screaming "l wish I were dead", over and over.
I scared the shit out of him, that's for sure. He's never seen me do that. He's now pressuring me to go back to a psychiatrist. I've been cheerful all day since, hoping he forgets my dramatic performance this morning. Also Hurricane Barry is pissing all over our state, so that helped too.

 

[Feline Fine]

I used to cry a lot, but after losing my hormones I don't really. Sometimes I can't get out a few tears if it's built up enough but otherwise I just can't any more, it's all trapped inside me.
I'm not sure if it's just because of my hormones or because losing them was losing the only thing that gave me a chance, it made me empty.