Do you cry? What is your coping?

[cheese.out]

How often do you cry? How often do you lay in bed and just let it all out? For me it feels like I cant even cry anymore. Maybe until last year i cried more often but at some point there was just so much bs going on that my brain just started coping with other ways (crying would be a lot better then those "new" coping mechanisms). But since then I always feel like on the edge. It feels like if one more thing goes wrong i will loose it all. There are days or maybe weeks where i feel better but those bad days are bad bad. Not to mention the urge to try a second ctb attempt. So i asked myself how you guys cope with all this bs.

 

[Fulminare]

I'm sorry to hear that. I also feel like I hit a wall when it comes to my depression and now it's been years of nothingness feelings wise. I have ways to cope but they're no good and usually get me into major trouble. Although expressing myself through art tends to help at times!

 

[アホペンギン]

I just cope with it by doing SH

 

[_Alfarooq_]

How often do you cry? How often do you lay in bed and just let it all out? For me it feels like I cant even cry anymore. Maybe until last year i cried more often but at some point there was just so much bs going on that my brain just started coping with other ways (crying would be a lot better then those "new" coping mechanisms). But since then I always feel like on the edge. It feels like if one more thing goes wrong i will loose it all. There are days or maybe weeks where i feel better but those bad days are bad bad. Not to mention the urge to try a second ctb attempt. So i asked myself how you guys cope with all this bs.

I play video games to cope with my cursed life.

 

[SadPingu]

At the moment I'd cry all the time but I've practiced a lot to be able to stop myself if I feel it coming on. It's worse when people are nice to me. There's this one person at work who knows what's going on with me (doesn't know the extent of how bad it currently is) I know they want to help but I wish they didn't.

 

[Stinger4771]

I didn't cry for years. I got sad but couldn't show it. Until a few weeks ago my favourite person left me. I have cried every day.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I never really cry these days, I just feel tired of existing and I always feel dread for what lies ahead as after all there is unlimited potential to suffer here. Having the ability to exist here really is such a terrible burden to me that only death could bring me relief from.

 

[𖣂𖣂𖣂.]

Video games, working out, isolating and music.

 

[SpeedingThroughLife]

I use to cry a lot before. But now I just can't. I don't know what happened. Now I just cope by moving like a maniac in bed like if I was having a seizure, I don't know why but it relaxes me. It calms me down.

 

[glendaaa]

I only ever cry when I visit here. It's just so heavy. Especially hearing abt other ppl who passed, especially recently this guy named vizzy. I hate seeing peoples names crossed out or looking at very old posts. I don't really cope well with it though, so sorry I don't have any tips. I just let it out lol. And then scroll on social media to distract.

 

[figure8]

I just listen to music. Don't have the energy to do much more these days, let alone cry.

 

[666razorblade]

I never cry, and I wish i could, to be honest. It feels impossible to do it, ususally all I do is sit and stare into space. Or I just cut. I cant remember the last time I cried.

 

[glendaaa]

I use to cry a lot before. But now I just can't. I don't know what happened. Now I just cope by moving like a maniac in bed like if I was having a seizure, I don't know why but it relaxes me. It calms me down.

I just recently learned on TikTok that shaking helps relieve trauma. Even animals do it, like after getting attacked they shake like crazy and get up and are fine. If you look up "animals shake to release trauma" you'll find more about it. I do it as well and find it helps

 

[Baron]

I cry almost everyday. I'm also on the internet a lot, like video games and stuff. That's probably a way to cope for me, although these past few months coping has become harder and harder.

 

[todiefor]

I don't know how to cope, that's why I'm here, planning ctb started as a coping mechanism against abuse and now it's the only solution. I can't cry on my own, I only cry when I talk about my pain verbally out aloud which I basically never do, or watching sad or happy movies especially ones about family and home and love. I'm just panicking and silently screaming on the inside, I really want this pain to stop.

 

[BoredomSeeker]

My life is basically a continuous distraction. Work, games, youtube, etc. I focus on all of those, and just distract myself from everything, that's how I cope. Just don't think about it, everything's fine. I've already set a date, and if everything goes according to plan, I won't need to distract for much longer.

 

[Ker]

I rarely cry, but there are times when something happens and you should cry, but it turns into hysteria. It used to be accompanied by hand cuts, but now I feel better and try to quit it. Sometimes, if I sit down to play computer games or draw, I feel calmer and don't even want to cry.

 

[thebookofdisquiet]

I don't ever cry or feel anything at all about "here", I only experience feelings when I watch movies, read or daydream. I cope writing about my existential beliefs and listening to music.

 

[Wkoncuodejde]

I'm trying to keep my head occupied with all sorts of crap so I don't have to think and my suffering and cry, but it often fails so about 2-3 times a week

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I cry everyday, life it's a torture for me

 

[Forever Sleep]

Most days, I'll cry at some point. Can be anytime though- sometimes I'll be working and still get tearful. I cry at music, I cry watching YouTube, I cry being on here sometimes. They say it's a release don't they? I guess, sometimes it is. Do you want to cry then? Are there any pieces of music that set you off?

 

[cheese.out]

Most days, I'll cry at some point. Can be anytime though- sometimes I'll be working and still get tearful. I cry at music, I cry watching YouTube, I cry being on here sometimes. They say it's a release don't they? I guess, sometimes it is. Do you want to cry then? Are there any pieces of music that set you off?

Yea sometimes I feel like i have to cry but I cant. Even some pieces of music that usually made me cry dont make me cry anymore. First I thought thats a good sign but then i realised that I may just cope that with other things instead like opiods and benzos. Im not in full drug mode, Im still able keep my hands from it for a few weeks but if something sets me off then its possible that im like 3 days not sober.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yea sometimes I feel like i have to cry but I cant. Even some pieces of music that usually made me cry dont make me cry anymore. First I thought thats a good sign but then i realised that I may just cope that with other things instead like opiods and benzos. Im not in full drug mode, Im still able keep my hands from it for a few weeks but if something sets me off then its possible that im like 3 days not sober.

Are you on anti-depressants also? I think they have the effect of making someone feel like a zombie.

 

[cheese.out]

Are you on anti-depressants also? I think they have the effect of making someone feel like a zombie.

No but last year I got a prescription for anti depressants but I never took them bc of those side effects. Some days I feel normal (maybe even good or sometimes I would say manic, like Im full of motivation and I have the urge to achieve everything) but the next day is absolute shit

 

[Forever Sleep]

No but last year I got a prescription for anti depressants but I never took them bc of those side effects. Some days I feel normal (maybe even good or sometimes I would say manic, like Im full of motivation and I have the urge to achieve everything) but the next day is absolute shit

I'm sorry. I expect hormonally we probably naturally fluctuate in terms of mood. Probably lots affects us- diet, sunshine, just how shit out lives are! I wonder if people sometimes go numb as a defence mechanism. Like a mental breakdown almost. Maybe your body is somehow protecting you from becomming too upset. I don't know really. It is weird though. I relate in terms of sometimes, I feel as if I've changed. I think I used to be a lot more open and loving when I was younger. I think we learn the hard way sometimes that it's better/ safer to be more self reserved.

 

[cheese.out]

I'm sorry. I expect hormonally we probably naturally fluctuate in terms of mood. Probably lots affects us- diet, sunshine, just how shit out lives are! I wonder if people sometimes go numb as a defence mechanism. Like a mental breakdown almost. Maybe your body is somehow protecting you from becomming too upset. I don't know really. It is weird though. I relate in terms of sometimes, I feel as if I've changed. I think I used to be a lot more open and loving when I was younger. I think we learn the hard way sometimes that it's better/ safer to be more self reserved.

Damn I thought about exactly the same. As a kid I was so energetic and more open. In one moment i think it got better but in the next it just feels like a lie and as you said just a defence mechanism to keep my mind working. Idk its really weird but thanks for the talk❤

 

[GM28]

I do though sometimes I can't when I want to. Listening to music helps sometimes, but soon back to normal black and procrastination. Thoughts of being gone help which says it all.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I rarely cry. It just makes me feel sadder and more pathetic.

 

[timetodie24]

I sometimes get tearful but struggle to properly cry anymore. Sometimes I feel like it would be good to get it out, but I just can't anymore. Often feel on the edge of tears but nothing comes. SH is my main coping mechanism. It's a bad one but i don't care anymore