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ReleaseMe

I know it's over And it never really began
May 26, 2018
120
It's hard to describe, I always look forward to summer when I think I can get better, but it is always the most terrible time of the whole year. Seeing other people live, not being able to take part, watching my life fade away.
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
Wow, I'm not the only one. Social anxiety is even worse because there is people everywhere, summer comes and just wish it to be winter again. Don't have to see anyone then.
 
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Tiburcio

Guest
It's the only moment in the year when I don't feel the impulse of stabbing myself the whole day.

Just sometimes.
 
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Deleted_9cKnXB34QG

Mage
Jun 26, 2018
501
No, I feel the worst in winter when it's dark and cold all the time. I dread the Christmas too, it's a grim reminder that I will never have a normal, loving family.
Summer makes me feel a little bit better.
 
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Samuel

Samuel

Wise
Apr 25, 2018
243
I feel worse in the summer.
 
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JayZT

JayZT

Member
Jul 12, 2018
96
I'm self conscious about my weight, my parents constantly shout at me telling me I'm getting to thin and they're forcing me to go to a doctor. This just makes my anxiety worse when outside, in Winter I can wear a jacket and hide everything but my parents are constantly forcing me to go out and in this weather I can only wear a top, I can't stand summer.
 
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Vvoiid

Member
Jul 18, 2018
65
summer is the worst for me.
 
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skyofAuroras

skyofAuroras

Student
Apr 10, 2018
136
Summer has always been the worst time of the year for me. Everything just feels so hot and suffocating. I feel much better when it's cold and I'm able to cuddle up in my favorite hoodie. Also my birthday is in summer so that probably has to do with why I hate it.
 
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Jerryman

Jerryman

Member
Jul 19, 2018
93
Also in winter I feel like I've got a year done, another year done 45ish left to go till the holy grail natural death.
 
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Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
1,286
Summer makes me wish I was dead. Due to climate change, every summer is going to get hotter and hotter
 
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ReleaseMe

I know it's over And it never really began
May 26, 2018
120
Summer makes me wish I was dead. Due to climate change, every summer is going to get hotter and hotter
Yeah seems like it.. everythings drying out here atm

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(2017 was pretty unremarkable but 2018 is going to end up in this "hit list" as well)
 
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typx

Specialist
May 4, 2018
381
Yeah, summer used to be a really exciting time. I mountain biked at a pretty high level for years and the spring/summer/fall time was filled with fun. Mostly lonely fun. But I was out and doing something. But even during those years, there were periods when I hated summer. Seeing people out and having fun. It hurt me to know I didn't function like them and that the social connectedness I saw wasn't ever going to be mine.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I'm miserable no matter what season it is. I remember looking forward to summer but now I look forward to death lol!
 
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Doctorj115

Member
Jul 19, 2018
87
It's hard to describe, I always look forward to summer when I think I can get better, but it is always the most terrible time of the whole year. Seeing other people live, not being able to take part, watching my life fade away.

Ab-so-lutely. Couldn't have put it better. It's supposed to be the most fun time of the year when everybody is living it up and you're stuck inside being depressed. I know exactly how you feel. God, I hate this.
 
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overkill

Student
Jul 18, 2018
132
I hate summer, I hate winter. Most of all I hate autumn. Autumn represents dying, decline. I hate it. I hate it all, can't decide.
 
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Dead_Inside

Dead_Inside

Wizard
Jul 2, 2018
622
Yeah, summer used to be a really exciting time. I mountain biked at a pretty high level for years and the spring/summer/fall time was filled with fun. Mostly lonely fun. But I was out and doing something. But even during those years, there were periods when I hated summer. Seeing people out and having fun. It hurt me to know I didn't function like them and that the social connectedness I saw wasn't ever going to be mine.
I think I understand that lonely fun ... do a lot of long distance trail running (which if fun to me) but I end up seeing a lot of families/ couples/happy friends out having adventures together.... I probably look too long trying to figure out what it is ... summer : (
 
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Tomasnil

Tomasnil

Mage
Apr 24, 2018
519
No every season suck
 
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typx

Specialist
May 4, 2018
381
I think I understand that lonely fun ... do a lot of long distance trail running (which if fun to me) but I end up seeing a lot of families/ couples/happy friends out having adventures together.... I probably look too long trying to figure out what it is ... summer : (

Yeah, exactly. Solo activities.
 
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FadedMemory

FadedMemory

Student
Aug 5, 2018
133
It's amazing how my favorite season in childhood became something i hate as a late teen. The heat makes me sleepy, since I grew in a shitty small town there's nothing to do here, and seeing all the happy people going on adventures makes me jealous.
I'd choose eternal winter over these hellish summer months any day.
 
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BxK

BxK

Member
Aug 20, 2018
38
I tried to kill myself two years ago around this same time, now want to do it again.
The summer hits hard for some reason. I don't even mind the heat, I work out in it all the time, but summer just...breaks my mood, well more than normal anyway!
 
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Nonexistence

Nonexistence

Member
Aug 12, 2018
45
Suicide rates peak in the summer months I believe...

Yeah, the world 'comes alive' and you just feel dead. The vile sunlight like life itself intruding into your bedroom every fucking morning when you just want to never wake up or get up again.

Christmas time and the lead up is pretty fucking revolting aswell though, especially if you work in retail.
 
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Willdieby30

recently unbanned
Aug 21, 2018
175
the weather is too hot.. and i've been suicidal.. but for me, traditionally, christmas is the worst.
 
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Comatose11

Mage
Jul 26, 2018
572
The only thing I hate about it is my older sibling coming back from college. Winter is my least favorite time.
 
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Fixin’ToDie

Member
Jun 11, 2018
95
I used to love summer, but that was when life for me was better. Now, as an impoverished older person, enduring a long hot and humid summer in a tiny apartment without a/c, it is living hell. As spring approaches, the thought of suffering through another summer is edging me closer towards the terminal bus.
 
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Plankter

Plankter

欠陥人
Aug 14, 2018
174
Summer is the worst for me too. Everything becomes lively and life gets faster and overwhelming. The heat & excessive sunshine only makes it worse
 
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jr93jr

Member
Apr 26, 2018
12
I used to really like summer, but last year I experienced the worst episode of depression that I'd ever experienced and it lasted the whole summer and never really went away. This summer hasn't been as bad but I can never look at it the same way again. And yet for some reason I still miss summer when it's gone. I don't even know what triggered that episode of depression, I was fine that winter and then randomly got slammed one day in May. It didn't used to be this bad.
 
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CRM

Idiot
Jul 13, 2018
190
I live in Florida, so it's summer ten months of the year.

So yeah, fuck summer.
 
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Mynameisnotimportant

Mynameisnotimportant

3 years recovered. SS Vetran
Aug 21, 2018
112
I thought summer was going to be better, but I just ended up between too depressed to get out of bed and working 12 hour days constantly. I thought school would be better because I would actually have friends but my friend group fell apart and every class I am reminded that everyone else is happy and I am not nor will ever be.
 
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