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ConfusedClouds

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For me it highlighted the need for planning and resources and really put me off doing anything impulsive which was more likely in the months I was lurking and then joined due to reading a post that really resonated with me.

In terms of the full word 'recover' thats a big word. But I guess there's infinitely more chance of recovery if I haven't attempted something impulsively and either ended up dead or severely ill/injured.
 
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JoysoftheEmptiness

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Sep 10, 2024
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I've always believed in open discussion of all and any mental health condition, be it self harm, suicide, whatever. I believe we must destroy the stigma of mental health, including suicide. I won't hide the fact that I believe in assisted suicide, my physical health is slowly going downhill. Talking about suicide is good, and its probably saving lives, not the other way around.
 
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Dropping a link (that's right) in here to this thread by @Placo with a compilation of "the other kind of goodbye" threads from the first half of this year.

To whom it may concern and be of interest: Users who improved in the first half of 2024

(it seemed relevant)
 
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_AllCatsAreGrey_

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Mar 4, 2024
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I think for me it has shifted my idea of what recovery can be. In the time when I first found the site I was actively suicidal. At the time this was very scary to me as I have attempted multiple times in my life. It felt like the feeling could overtake me. I was scared to talk about it with my therapist.

After coming to the site I started my research, both on methods and the DIY right to die movement in general. This removed the feeling of taboo around suicide. I no longer felt that I was afraid of my ideation. I feel confident in my right to choose the time of my death. This made the whole subject more rational.

When researching methods it's become obvious there is a lot to learn and plan for. Taking on suicide as a lifelong project has really shifted my attitude. I'm working on building kits and possible plans. For me recovery means managing impulsive urges, so in a weird way researching and planning is a part of my recovery. lol

It reminds me of this quote from Emil Cioran: "What saved me was the idea of suicide. If it wasn't for the idea of suicide I would have killed myself." (paraphrased)

 
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Praying 4 a Miracle

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When people feel trapped in their suffering, they're far more likely to commit suicide. A forum like this makes people feel less trapped. We all realize that we have options, and this reduces the number of people who out of desperation will follow through. If all adults qualify for medically assisted dying, this would also reduce the total number of people who commit suicide because of chronic health issues.

It's the feeling of being trapped in our suffering, that makes it completely unbearable. This is what creates the most anxiety and stress. People who are not currently suffering from any health issues need to understand this, and it needs to happen quickly.
 
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turnaround

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Nov 20, 2024
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It's no secret that (worldwide), many in society seem very uncomfortable with the open discussion of this subject. It seems to me that censoring it, and preventing people from openly communicating will only make the problem much worse.

When prohibition of alcohol was enforced years ago, did it stop people from drinking? It just drove the problem underground. Bootlegging began, causing dangerous manufacturing processes, which resulted in unpredictable and tragic health consequences. If prohibition was a good solution, we would still be using it today.

Banning or censoring free speech (online or anywhere else) will only drive the conversations underground, where the efforts for encouraging recovery will most likely NOT be taking place.

It's understandable that so many in society feel uncomfortable discussing the subject of death and suffering, but the result of allowing these conversations IMO, is that people feel supported and understood.

By allowing citizens around the world to build a community of people who understand what each other is going through, it dramatically reduces the amount of anxiety for those who are suffering intensely. This will result in a DECREASE in suicide rates around the world, NOT an increase.

Stigmatizing the entire subject is obviously not working, as suicide is currently the number one cause of death WORLDWIDE for people under 35. Also number one for MEN under 50 (even eclipsing auto accidents!). By limiting access to safe, medical assistance in dying programs, this forces many who are suffering intolerably to resort to dangerous and painful unassisted methods, where the chances of further disability and suffering are extremely high.

If people know they have access to a safe and peaceful way of relieving their intense pain, if absolutely necessary, then this dramatically reduces anxiety levels and improves overall mental health. When you combine assisted and unassisted methods, th
is will result in FEWER people committing suicide overall.

Those citizens suffering strictly from poverty, should be supported by programs such as disability benefits, universal basic income, and assistance in finding employment. This would prevent those suffering from poverty and disabilities from being motivated to choose assisted dying for financial reasons. IMO, if you take all financial reasons off the table, NO ONE is going to want to prematurely end their life, unless they are truly suffering intolerably, with no other possible solutions available to solve the problem(s). Then EVERY adult can make this extremely important decision for themselves.

Obviously, the ultimate objective should ALWAYS be recovery, and that is why this open discussion forum is so important. What people in the mainstream media (and healthy/happy individuals) should be learning from this forum, is that there are a LOT of people who feel they have no way of escaping their pain in this life, without resorting to the various painful and dangerous methods that are often discussed.

By also offering many recovery and mental health support resources, along with encouraging and moderating a respectful environment for open communication and community, it's undeniable that this forum is saving many.

I totally agree with your post. I've been watching this site for awhile, finally became a member, it's my first post, reading people being open, honest, and vulnerable about how they are truly feeling, especially these last few days of intense depression and despair, has oddly made me feel not alone. We have to hide how we feel all day long, even friends and family can't understand, or if they do they won't vocalize the reality we all have come to. That ending one's life is your choice. If we truly have bodily autonomy we should be able to decide if we want to be active players in a game none of signed up for, or have been dealt bad hands at.

I'm thankful for being apart of this community. Thank you all for your bravery.
 
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Darkover

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Jul 29, 2021
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i am willing to bet this forum has killed more people than it has saved
if this forum didn't exist many wouldn't be able to find a method that is acceptable to them therefore not having the means to kill ones self
hence saving life's
even if this forum did help you recover there's still a high chance you'd of recovered anyway
 
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alltoomuch2

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Feb 10, 2024
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It's no secret that (worldwide), many in society seem very uncomfortable with the open discussion of this subject. It seems to me that censoring it, and preventing people from openly communicating will only make the problem much worse.

When prohibition of alcohol was enforced years ago, did it stop people from drinking? It just drove the problem underground. Bootlegging began, causing dangerous manufacturing processes, which resulted in unpredictable and tragic health consequences. If prohibition was a good solution, we would still be using it today.

Banning or censoring free speech (online or anywhere else) will only drive the conversations underground, where the efforts for encouraging recovery will most likely NOT be taking place.

It's understandable that so many in society feel uncomfortable discussing the subject of death and suffering, but the result of allowing these conversations IMO, is that people feel supported and understood.

By allowing citizens around the world to build a community of people who understand what each other is going through, it dramatically reduces the amount of anxiety for those who are suffering intensely. This will result in a DECREASE in suicide rates around the world, NOT an increase.

Stigmatizing the entire subject is obviously not working, as suicide is currently the number one cause of death WORLDWIDE for people under 35. Also number one for MEN under 50 (even eclipsing auto accidents!). By limiting access to safe, medical assistance in dying programs, this forces many who are suffering intolerably to resort to dangerous and painful unassisted methods, where the chances of further disability and suffering are extremely high.

If people know they have access to a safe and peaceful way of relieving their intense pain, if absolutely necessary, then this dramatically reduces anxiety levels and improves overall mental health. When you combine assisted and unassisted methods, th
is will result in FEWER people committing suicide overall.

Those citizens suffering strictly from poverty, should be supported by programs such as disability benefits, universal basic income, and assistance in finding employment. This would prevent those suffering from poverty and disabilities from being motivated to choose assisted dying for financial reasons. IMO, if you take all financial reasons off the table, NO ONE is going to want to prematurely end their life, unless they are truly suffering intolerably, with no other possible solutions available to solve the problem(s). Then EVERY adult can make this extremely important decision for themselves.

Obviously, the ultimate objective should ALWAYS be recovery, and that is why this open discussion forum is so important. What people in the mainstream media (and healthy/happy individuals) should be learning from this forum, is that there are a LOT of people who feel they have no way of escaping their pain in this life, without resorting to the various painful and dangerous methods that are often discussed.

By also offering many recovery and mental health support resources, along with encouraging and moderating a respectful environment for open communication and community, it's undeniable that this forum is saving many.
This and my CPN are the only places I can open up to and the only place I can get informed and kind support. If you share even a small amount to anyone else it immediately becomes all about them - their worries and fears about me. But no true compassion or understanding. They are nothing but an obligation, a millstone when I'm struggling. They don't understand and they don't understand that all I want is someone to listen and try to understand what I'm going through. SaSu and mental health services have managed to get me through the worst of days without ctb. I need both. If one were gone, I'd be gone too. I hope I've helped others on here in the same way. We understand. We know. We help. We support. We never encourage ctb. We encourage choice. We gently question if someone seems to be impulsive or not able to think clearly if they have mental illness. We celebrate recovery, including even the smallest of wins. We are not one of those soul sucking, hope sucking Facebook groups. If mental health services provided what we provide here in the way of support and safekeeping ..... SaSu has saved my life a number of times and helped me to choose recovery if I can. People demonise these site out of ignorance of the breadth, scope and loving support that is here, or to make money from journalism. They forget, or rather dont care, that they are playing with the lives of people who are hanging by a thread, merely to gain readers and make money.
i am willing to bet this forum has killed more people than it has saved
if this forum didn't exist many wouldn't be able to find a method that is acceptable to them therefore not having the means to kill ones self
hence saving life's
even if this forum did help you recover there's still a high chance you'd of recovered anyway
You are entitled to your opinion, but I disagree. And answering your point that people wouldn't have found a method that's acceptable without the site, no. They would have used something acceptable them that wouldn't have worked but would permanently damaged them because they knew no better...paracetamol, ibuprofen, antifreeze, to name a few. Knowing that the methods easily accessed, like overdoses of otc medications, can harm permanently and cause agonising pain can prevent them being used. The more reliable methods described on SaSu are difficult to obtain, and)or are likely to induce very strong SI, and are less likely to be used, with the net result that the person stays alive. Aren't there around 50k members on here? Some have been members for years and are still here. Yet there aren't even thousands of deleted accounts, and even when an account is deleted we don't know why. The knowledge about the pain, violence and negative aspects of different methods, and the support from this community will have, I'm positive, saved more lives than caused death. I'm one so far. I used to keep a store of paracetamol and diphenhydramine to ctb, and came VERY close to taking them. On here I was able to ask people who'd done that but been saved what it was like and the horrific effects described put me off ever using them. I have sn now, but I'm still not sure it's painless, and the requirement for fasting and taking antiemetics prevents me from doing anything impulsive, which was a real and constant danger before I found SaSu.
 
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Makes me feel less alone and less like a freak of nature for having these feelings and thoughts.
 
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Darkover

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You are entitled to your opinion, but I disagree. And answering your point that people wouldn't have found a method that's acceptable without the site, no. They would have used something acceptable them that wouldn't have worked but would permanently damaged them because they knew no better...paracetamol, ibuprofen, antifreeze, to name a few. Knowing that the methods easily accessed, like overdoses of otc medications, can harm permanently and cause agonising pain can prevent them being used. The more reliable methods described on SaSu are difficult to obtain, and)or are likely to induce very strong SI, and are less likely to be used, with the net result that the person stays alive. Aren't there around 50k members on here? Some have been members for years and are still here. Yet there aren't even thousands of deleted accounts, and even when an account is deleted we don't know why. The knowledge about the pain, violence and negative aspects of different methods, and the support from this community will have, I'm positive, saved more lives than caused death. I'm one so far. I used to keep a store of paracetamol and diphenhydramine to ctb, and came VERY close to taking them. On here I was able to ask people who'd done that but been saved what it was like and the horrific effects described put me off ever using them. I have sn now, but I'm still not sure it's painless, and the requirement for fasting and taking antiemetics prevents me from doing anything impulsive, which was a real and constant danger before I found SaSu.
Sanctioned Suicide may present itself as a safe space, but it's undeniably a dangerous platform that enables and even encourages suicidal ideation. The truth is, for every person who claims it helped them avoid a harmful method or prolonged their life, there are countless others who have been led down a path toward death simply because they were given the "permission" to entertain the idea. The reality is, for many, SaSu doesn't help—it facilitates. It gives people a blueprint for how to end their lives when they might otherwise have struggled with the decision long enough to seek real help. By providing methods, advice, and a community that shares suicidal thoughts, the forum doesn't just make it easier for people to find ways to die—it actively normalizes the thought of it as an acceptable solution to pain.

And let's be clear here: for every life SaSu claims to have saved, how many have ended because of it? How many people have walked into that forum, felt understood for the first time, and then been given the tools and methods that made ending their life feel like a plausible option? How many have died because of it? The truth is, no one can provide the full number of lives lost due to SaSu, but given the nature of its content, I'd bet it's more than a few.

SaSu doesn't cure the underlying mental health struggles, it doesn't change the despair or the pain that bring people there in the first place. It simply validates it, offering a quiet form of complicity. In many cases, it's not just a space for people to talk—they're actively reaffirming their decision to die, without challenge, without the confrontation of better possibilities, and without professional intervention. And for those still struggling with deep thoughts of suicide, SaSu doesn't offer recovery—it offers acceptance of the worst part of them.

If we're talking about the net effect of this forum, it's clear: it kills more people than it saves. People looking for methods aren't just finding alternatives to painful options—they're finding solutions that keep them focused on death rather than life. We can argue about "safety" and "less pain," but that's the trap: we're not talking about survival, we're talking about sustaining suicidal thoughts.

In the end, what SaSu really offers isn't a solution to suffering, it's a shortcut to death.
 
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Sanctioned Suicide may present itself as a safe space, but it's undeniably a dangerous platform that enables and even encourages suicidal ideation. The truth is, for every person who claims it helped them avoid a harmful method or prolonged their life, there are countless others who have been led down a path toward death simply because they were given the "permission" to entertain the idea. The reality is, for many, SaSu doesn't help—it facilitates. It gives people a blueprint for how to end their lives when they might otherwise have struggled with the decision long enough to seek real help. By providing methods, advice, and a community that shares suicidal thoughts, the forum doesn't just make it easier for people to find ways to die—it actively normalizes the thought of it as an acceptable solution to pain.

And let's be clear here: for every life SaSu claims to have saved, how many have ended because of it? How many people have walked into that forum, felt understood for the first time, and then been given the tools and methods that made ending their life feel like a plausible option? How many have died because of it? The truth is, no one can provide the full number of lives lost due to SaSu, but given the nature of its content, I'd bet it's more than a few.

SaSu doesn't cure the underlying mental health struggles, it doesn't change the despair or the pain that bring people there in the first place. It simply validates it, offering a quiet form of complicity. In many cases, it's not just a space for people to talk—they're actively reaffirming their decision to die, without challenge, without the confrontation of better possibilities, and without professional intervention. And for those still struggling with deep thoughts of suicide, SaSu doesn't offer recovery—it offers acceptance of the worst part of them.

If we're talking about the net effect of this forum, it's clear: it kills more people than it saves. People looking for methods aren't just finding alternatives to painful options—they're finding solutions that keep them focused on death rather than life. We can argue about "safety" and "less pain," but that's the trap: we're not talking about survival, we're talking about sustaining suicidal thoughts.

In the end, what SaSu really offers isn't a solution to suffering, it's a shortcut to death.
I still disagree. But it is hard to find facts to support either of our opposing views. Honest question made with good intentions, you joined in 2021. Why are you still here, alive but still on SaSu? Has it not helped you in any way, whether that's being able to vent in a space where people are more likely to empathise or understand, or the support and companionship that so many on here offer?
 
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.twilight.girl.

.twilight.girl.

Living off of miracles.
Aug 19, 2023
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I definitely think so, you can't even use the word suicide openly. I hear people say "unalive" in real life and online. I understand that may be a sensitive, triggering word but it also takes away the severity that is 'suicide'. Just being able to use proper terminology makes the conversation legitimate and speaking openly here already makes a world of a difference in my personal recovery, along with other resources I have found here.
 
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I've been lurking here for 5+ years. I think there are some people who, despite being on SaSu, find the will and a way to get better. But I honestly think those people probably would've gotten better anyway.

Most of the people I've seen here CTB, in my opinion, should not have done so. It's a lot of very young people, many of whom have barely scratched the surface of treatments or lifestyle changes. I've talked to a few people here in their lowest of lows who were about to off themselves. Most immediately felt better just having someone who got it listening. A lot of the most despairing people were able to see more hope in their situation just by having someone there as a sounding board. Someone who has survived decades of suicidality and knows how to cope with relationship bs, failing in school, and struggling at work and has made a decent life regardless.

The problem is I don't see other users with this mindset when talking to others. And how can I blame them? They're usually depressed and young as fuck too. But that's the crux of the problem. It's an echo chamber of people with a disorder (me included) that causes them to filter out neutral and positive information. Of course they aren't going to understand or portray the big picture to one another with any degree of accuracy.

For the record I am pro-choice. People should be allowed to make their own mistakes, even if the cost is their life well before it's their time. But they should be fully informed of the holistic picture and other potential solutions. And that doesn't really happen here a lot of the time.

And yes, as a lover of all things psychology, there are undeniably terminally mentally ill patients. But they are so exceedingly rare. I don't know if I've ever even seen one here in my time lurking. Most of the SaSu deaths imo were tragic, untimely, and preventable.

A pro-choice suicide forum, in a vacuum, makes a lot of sense. I think CTB knowledge should be available because people should have bodily autonomy and there are people who need to CTB. But because the audience is almost always severely depressed people, you will always end up with people exacerbating each others' illnesses most of the time. It's a really sad situation. I wish mainstream mental health resources were less alienating so people wouldn't have to come here.
I wish somewhere was a middle ground, where pessimistic rambling is discouraged but you can still say how you feel without getting locked up for it.
Exactly. A place where people don't immediately act like you're insane for mulling over the idea and need to call 911. People who already feel broken and alienated need to know that having these feelings is OK. At the same time it needs to be a place where others don't immediately endorse the idea that your life is irredeemable and there's no fixing anything.
Dropping a link (that's right) in here to this thread by @Placo with a compilation of "the other kind of goodbye" threads from the first half of this year.

To whom it may concern and be of interest: Users who improved in the first half of 2024

(it seemed relevant)
This is wholesome af but the twin list for ctbs is soooo much longer. I definitely agree with @TransilvanianHunger that you get what you put into this forum. And for most people that is severe hopelessness.
 
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cryone

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i agree 100% that it is ultimately important and helpful, however, I'm unsure if it significantly helps in recovery. i doubt that what led members to recover was the ability to have open discussions on suicide. how simple life would be if that was true. the thing is though, i don't even believe it's problematic if these open discussions (unless it's in the recovery subforum) increase suicide rates because ultimately, the problems are the underlying issues that motivate ppl to ctb, not the act itself.

edit: after more thinking, I believe the site can hinder recovery for many. I'm assuming most ppl who use the recovery subforum had initially planned to use SS to CTB. by keeping an overall similar environment, users who are looking to recover are still surrounded by cues that remind them of their suicidal history. i believe the best way to recover to adopt a starkly different environment where stimuli to suicidal behavior is limited.
 
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