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NekiLik
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- Feb 10, 2024
- 30
I tried four times to CTB but never succeeded. First time at 20 I tried to OD on sleeping pills but just ended up vomiting them. Last year I tried to hang myself but stopped after making a noose for myself, I just didn't dare to do it. I also tried OD on Xanax but did not succeed. About 3 weeks ago I tried to take Xanax then drank a bunch of Alcohol and then more Xanaxes after which I stopped breathing, after waking up and seeing I was still there I tried to cut my veins in desperation, but my friend informed my mother who called an ambulance to me. They took me into a psychiatric hospital and drugged the hell out of me. All the time there I was lying to all the staff about how it was accidental and only was thinking of the best way to either run away and throw myself off some skyscraper or wait until I got out and try to OD again. I was released a few days ago and I feel like shit, I just want to end it all if possible before May, but I am terrified of surviving it and ending up in a hospital again.