hahaha my first significant attempt was taking 50 prazosin pills (blood pressure lowering med) and all the EMTs were just like
not impressed lmfao like making it clear that that's stupid and obvious not to work. I had no clue, idk, i was hoping itd kill me, it seemed like a lot, but they were all super flippant about it. Same with er docs, everyone was just like lol look at this fool. My 2 block, $900 ambulance ride wasnt even with the lights on :( also in the 24 hr observation period in the er (just had a drip, no stomach pumping or anything like that, again all the doctors were kinda just like lol...) i had a blood pressure cuff that'd automatically inflate every 30 minutes (for 24 hours straight) to check my blood pressure, and after several hours it started to hurt super bad, to the point that like halfway thru, i'd hear the beep thatd signal it was about to inflate and before it even inflated id start hyperventilating because it hurt so bad and i knew it was coming... drs kept treating me like i was just being super dramatic and unstable and it wasnt an issue and they made me keep it on. Until they took it off at the end and my whole upper arm where it had been was dark purple/red, super bruised from that gd thing, and everyone was just... *surprised pikachu face*
Anyway yeah thts just my negative interactions with regular drs in terms of suicide related stuff. I've lost count of how many therapists and psychiatrists have been condescending and nasty and talked over me or talked down to me or been invalidating.