snooperdooper
Student
- Jan 27, 2024
- 112
So bcz of my depression I haven't been able to move out of my parents house, and they're going on a vacation sometime this week. My sister is coming over to take care of the pets because they don't trust me to remember to feed them. And while she was here I made her cry. I wanted to be alone and she was pestering me with questions and so I left and didn't respond to her at all. She cried because of that, because of how distant I am and how I am so shitty to everybody. So my parents had to force themselves into my room to confront me over it, like how they love me but I need to appreciate what they do for me. Appreciate?!?!?!? They have more than ignored my gender dysphoria and depression ever since I came out to them like 5-6 years ago and ever since I stopped talking to them. But just because she can cry her every woe must be attended to and I must be thoroughly wrung out.
It's such bullshit, and it reinforced my determination to CTB. Sure, maybe through hard work I could force myself to stay alive through sheer willpower (and without any support systems) but they will NEVER take my gender dysphoria seriously, they will NEVER suffer so long as I am alive. They need a message that gets through to them.
It's such bullshit, and it reinforced my determination to CTB. Sure, maybe through hard work I could force myself to stay alive through sheer willpower (and without any support systems) but they will NEVER take my gender dysphoria seriously, they will NEVER suffer so long as I am alive. They need a message that gets through to them.
