Disgusted by humanity

[SleepDealer]

I need to vent. Life has been too peaceful lately. This doesn't change my desire to die, it simply means that nothing awful has happened. I found myself wishing that something would stir up my suicidal thoughts again because it's easier to overcome SI when I'm desperate. Unfortunately, my wish came true.

Once again, I've been reminded of how disgusting humans are after accidentally unearthing a community of gore and abuse fanatics. It's nothing new but it's still gross, just gross. I'm tired. Put me out of my misery. I don't want to think about this, much less try to sleep with it on my mind. I don't want to share a planet with these people. I don't want to think about how many there are, what lengths they will go to, or how many have suffered for their pleasure. I'm reminded of too many things I've worked too hard to forget. I know these people and the horrors they flock to will always exist. There's nothing I can do except try to forget all over again. It's exhausting.

I'm tired, so tired. Let me sleep.

 

[Pluto]

Sounds like an awful thing to witness.

My theory about that is that because humans originated as hunter-gatherers, we needed to be capable of 'enjoying' killing and gore in order to survive. But in the modern era, this trait no longer serves us. The most primitive people seem to thrive on it.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

I found one on a darknet chan. There is a board for gore with threads about dead children and animals. Can't wait for this planet to be wiped.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I dont get why people look up gore.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am also disgusted by humanity. Human beings are capable of so many horrible things. There is so much suffering in this world. I read true crime articles and when I hear what people have done, it makes me want to leave this world even more and it makes me ashamed to be human. This world is a terrible place.

 

[slyna]

I dont get why people look up gore.

Shock value.

Also, many who watch gore believe they get desentized and get thickened skin.

 

[NoPointToContinue]

Don't judge them. I don't think reality of works is good vs bad, I believe it is wisdom vs ignorance. Every evil comes from ignorance.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

I understand you. I have come to hate people as well.

 

[slyna]

I understand you. I have come to hate people as well.

Ask yourself if you are always so much in control of yourself and then judge people from that.
Most people run on autopilot and many of our actions are controlled by our subconcious.
Our subconcious mind is really, really strong.

Don't judge them. I don't think reality of works is good vs bad, I believe it is wisdom vs ignorance. Every evil comes from ignorance.

Indeed. Although the complexity of life is rather simple in it's core I believe ... but you're right it's not good vs bad, those are just human social constructions.
Good vs evil are nessecary tho, because it creates a structure and a building block for mankinds survival and society.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

I don't understand Slyna.

 

[slyna]

I don't understand Slyna.

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[Deleted member 8975]

I mean I am no longer in control of anything. I am completely weak and vulnerable. Doesn't change that I still despise humanity and all living things.

 

[slyna]

I mean I am no longer in control of anything. I am completely weak and vulnerable. Doesn't change that I still despise humanity and all living things.

I agree fully, just trying to add some incentive for you to not go under because of all your hate, but get some understanding in the midst of it.

I hate biology too. It's a big mistake, but 99% of humanity doesn't get that. All they care about is getting their needs met really.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

But see I don't see it like hate. I don't want to go and kill every living thing. I just want to die myself. Sometimes I wish the earth would crash into the sun or something like that but it's short lasting thoughts. Permanently? inside I can NEVER trust a person. I just can't. And I can't say the reason ultimately why because of TW but…if you think hard enough I'm sure you could understand.

 

[littlelungs]

More often than not, I'm horrified by humanity. There is so much evil in this world, and I find it highly disturbing and completely disgusting that there are so many people who enjoy hurting others (both humans and animals), watching them suffer and laughing at/mocking their pain.

Our species just seems to have a really hard time with basic fucking decency, and I'm generally just so sick of our shit. Humanity is a disaster and I can't wait to not be part of this anymore.

 

[SleepDealer]

Don't judge them. I don't think reality of works is good vs bad, I believe it is wisdom vs ignorance. Every evil comes from ignorance.

I don't see any reason why I should not judge someone who enjoys another's suffering, much less participates in it.