Discussion Did you ever wish to be shot, stabbed or chocked rather than having to ctb yourself?

[cryvinglightning]

they wouldn't be gentle with my body and my final moments would be spent in a SI induced panic. i'd much rather do everything on my own terms, with my own plan and my own will laid out.

 

[worsethananightmare]

yes, since im a coward, and its better than succumbing to my illness

 

[smigglesbred]

Every single day. I'd like to be taken out quickly, to not suffer any more than I have to/already have.

 

[natthebrat]

Absolutely. As a matter of fact just the other day my mom asked me what I would do if a shooter ran up to me with a gun. Obviously I didn't say it but my thought was "I would THANK the gunman for being there and just request that he make it quick".

 

[Alltheywanted]

When I was still afriad of hell I did wish for that but now I'd prefer to do it by my self. I trust in my own research and I'm pretty confident about my methods.

 

[flower_g1rl]

sometimes, yeah

 

[MeltingBrain]

Yes , stray bullet straight to my head .

 

[Rorochan_200★]

idk cause on one hand I feel like it would be way easier to go by someone else whilst on the other, i'd get pity or attention or something
both seem quite appealing

 

[LostInTheWoods]

Sometimes i think about going in some bad suburbds and make people killing me of course it's too crazy i wont never do that

 

[Lost Impact]

I think about just being murdered a lot. I'm agoraphobic and don't leave the house except for psych appointments mostly because I'm afraid of being killed by some random person. However, there's a part of me that feels like it would be better if that happened. I'd want them to set me on fire and make my body unrecognisable completely.

But I also want to go by my own hands. I don't want to be defiled.

It's a tearing thought.

 

[Tobacco]

I'm mostly here because I care too much about my family and don't have a method at hand so if someone could walk behind me and shoot me in the head I would appreciate it, thanks.

 

[finalrequiem]

Every second of every day I pray for some freak accident where I get shot on the street LMAO

 

[natthebrat]

When I was still afriad of hell I did wish for that but now I'd prefer to do it by my self. I trust in my own research and I'm pretty confident about my methods.

Out of curiousity, what led you to stop being afraid of Hell?

 

[Yonkers1]

I would rather get a terminal illness like cancer. I see people dying younger and younger from cancer and the first thing I think is that I would GLADLY trade places with them. It just isn't fair. The people who love life end up getting sick and dying young and then there are people like me, in great health, who absolutely HATE it here.

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

It is easier to kill someone else than oneself - so I would prefer that someone shot me to death - then I do not have to do the work myself.

 

[ththth999]

I just don't want the responsibility and I don't want to decide

quite alot, actually.
im somehow reliefed to know that it's a common issue for suicidal people, because i was terribly scared of those thoughts appearing in my head. not that suicidal thoughts are any better, but daydreaming about being killed by someone else seemed disturbing, to say the least.

 

[Alltheywanted]

Out of curiousity, what led you to stop being afraid of Hell?

I changed my idea of hell from a place full of torture to a place where there is simply no god, and that is not much different from where we live now.

 

[kipper]

i have wished someone would murder me as i dont have access to anything to cbt. i know i wouldnt be fond of it in the moment or possibly surviving it though.

 

[MoonBloom]

Sometimes I think about getting a disease that'll kill me like cancer or smth