Discussion did the pandemic have an impact on your mental health?

[theboy]

For some it was faroable but for others it was horrible.
What happened in your case?

 

[willitpass]

I had been in remission from my depression for about a year, then December 2019 it came back fast and strong. I tried to CTB February 2020, about a month later covid hit. My mental health was struggling beforehand, covid was the nail in the coffin. I did my best to go on walks every day and be as virtually social as possible, but it was not going well. I joined here March 2020 and bought my first bottle of SN a couple of months later, though it got confiscated. I was doing horribly mentally. By October a bought a new bottle a nearly died. Covid was just shit icing on a shit cake.

 

[sserafim]

I honestly enjoyed lockdown. I realized that I enjoyed isolation and being alone. However, it decreased and degraded my social skills, and I think it made me more autistic and schizoid due to lack of socialization and not being around people. I never enjoyed being around people though, so when I didn't have to and wasn't forced to anymore, I was happy about it, and liked it. Isolation became my default mode. The pandemic also added to and increased my dislike of the world, society and other people

 

[Unicornsrnot4dislife]

It turned me more insane! Not seeing anyone, having the same people to look at and over riding thoughts.. too much! Covid fucked me over

 

[Throwawayacc3]

Made income from the business go to pretty much zero. So yeah. I was more pissed that I saw it was the biggest wealth transfer in history but that "conspiracy" apparently.
Didn't take the clot shot either. I was really surprised that people on the left (mainly) are meant to be against these types of institutions but were supporting these massive corrupt pharmaceutical companies. Clown world. As explained before I don't align with any of these political cunts - they are all same and want power/money. The majority of UK politicians were making money from newly opened limited companies, shares in the big pharmaceutical companies, etc.

I hate this fucking world.

 

[anhedonya]

It made everything 100 times worse for me. When the pandemic was just around the corner, I really did have a chance. I had school and a car (that I was allowed to practice driving in!) and friends and a million things lining up. I was going to go to physical spaces and be a part of the world. I was finally gaining a sense of freedom and responsibility, even if it was stilted by my mother. Then the pandemic happened and my isolation just continued. Now to this day I take classes online. I work online. I talk to my friends online. And my immune system is weaker thanks to the pandemic- before, I could go wherever I wanted and be the only one who didn't get sick when others were. Now? If I go outside and there's more than 10 people that walk a little too closely to me, I'm going to come down with a cold that leaves me unable to breathe properly for a week straight. The pandemic destroyed a lot of opportunities for me.

 

[xoirse]

it made everything worse, before the pandemic i was already a bit socially awkward so i thought it wouldn't be that much of a problem for me but then if i'm not stuck with ppl outside then i'm stuck with my parents which also sucks in comparison. parents tried to call on the cops on me just bc i wouldn't get out of my room and failing, barely slept bc i was drowning in school works and i have no motivation to finish it before the deadline, some even past the deadline. i thought it was gonna be easy since i've always had insomnia and i'll just use my time to finish them but i never thought i'd be so burnt out mentally and physically so quick, with not much to do in my room i couldn't to get ctb (haven't found this site yet lol). also my ed got worse bc i barely go out and eat, only pills.

 

[DepressedGata]

The Pandemic made everything worse. Spending nearly a year self-isolating led to me completely forgetting how to function in the outside world; that year became another year then another, I can't seem to slip back into going Outside the same way everybody else has been able to.

 

[Ironborn]

100% made it worse.
I'd worked retail my entire life but in 2019 decided to go for my hgv licence. Passed my theory a month before the first lockdown here in the UK.
Never been a very social person but I used to get out into town at least once a week to look around, lockdown killed that altogether.
Dealing with customers was hell during that time, got into more fights with them during that one year than my previous decade put together. Even got one bunch of cunts pull a knife on us.
Always been a drinker but lockdown made me a true alcoholic, on my days off would have at least two bottles of spirits.
When they eased restrictions I finally managed to get my practical hgv lessons done and got my licence.
Work just got worse, had to do more with fewer people.
Finally got a driving job but I hadn't realised how burnt out I was, had to quit after a few weeks.
Since then bounced between a few different jobs.
Tried to take my life just after the new year, surprised I made it this far tbh.
Just living off my savings now but been sober since January so there is that at least.
Giving myself until my birthday then going to decide.
Thanks for listening

 

[Red Moon]

I already finished college so it was the same for me. I can handle the isolation and I liked it but it made me worse overall. I also hated having to wear a mask if I needed to go out.

My doctor insisted on giving me the needle but I never wanted it.

Millions and billions were stolen too and it just made me dislike this world and most people.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

The pandemic honestly made things better for me. Back then, I was getting bullied in school and that stopped because of lockdown which I'm so grateful for. As for the social aspect of it, well, nothing changed for me and I don't mean that as a hyperbole or a metaphor... literally nothing changed for me socially because I never had anybody to talk to anyway. Before the pandemic, my daily life was just go to school, never talk to anybody aside from teachers, go home and rot away alone without having talked to a single person my age. So, in that aspect, the pandemic changed nothing hence, overall, the pandemic made me feel better

 

[EmptyHeaded]

I honestly loved it. People stayed away from you, everyone was wearing a mask, stores were a lot more empty, and less people were outside. It was nice.

 

[sserafim]

I honestly loved it. People stayed away from you, everyone was wearing a mask, stores were a lot more empty, and less people were outside. It was nice.

Same. I think it's a factor in why I'm a NEET now though. I forgot how to function in the outside world. I was in college/university during the pandemic, and when we all got sent home, I was so happy. I loved doing online classes from the comfort of my home. It was so chill. I also loved not having to be around people. I wish that everything could have stayed online forever. I hate how everything went back to in-person so quickly

Spending nearly a year self-isolating led to me completely forgetting how to function in the outside world; that year became another year then another, I can't seem to slip back into going Outside the same way everybody else has been able to.

Same. I've self-isolated ever since graduating college. I realized that it's my comfort zone

 

[halleyscomet]

During the pandemic my mental health was much better.

At the time I didn't know I was autistic, I was only diagnosed last year. So before covid I was constantly exhausted from excessive masking to meet social demands.

When the pandemic hit, it allowed me to be authentically myself without having to pretend to be normal, thus my mental health improved. I was still depressed sure, I have clinical depression. But I was content with myself, I didn't hate myself anymore because I didn't have to constantly meet others demands or compare myself to my peers.

 

[divinemistress36]

It had no effect I was already isolating myself

 

[PetrichorBirth]

For some it was faroable but for others it was horrible.
What happened in your case?

I was very happy. Was in highschool back then, the lockdown meant that i could hang out and play videogames more. I also used to work at a supermarket back then, for some reason i felt like i was doing something special by working what was deemed an "essential job" during special times or something.

 

[greebo6]

Lockdown was actually okay. Enjoyed some aspects of it. Life slowed down and the world was a quieter place...at least for a while.

 

[KowakuNaiNeko]

I definitely became more disillusioned during the pandemic and late in the pandemic is when I laid out my plan to move to a town where I don't know anyone and then die when I'm about to run out of money
But I think without the pandemic I probably would have made the same decision. It's hard to say for sure either way.

 

[CowardStaysIn]

My mental health was already not great before the pandemic. And, frankly, I was already socializing a lot less (my physical health had gotten worse - chronic illnesses checked in - turns out it was all because of Cushing's Disease, which I finally got a doctor to listen to me and do the proper tests and diagnose me with last month) and I already didn't like/trust other people. I welcomed the reason to keep doing as I was doing and less pressure to "get out there" and be miserable socializing when I did not want to. You also find out who your real friends/family are when you are no longer feeling obligated to do shit for them/be their bank, so.

I don't think the pandemic really made me worse - I just knew that people would be shitty as usual and I wasn't disappointed. Disregarding the lives of people like me (older, chronically ill - I got a sister who's immunocompromised because transplants) and refusing to do the bare minimum to protect others (Americans and our "rugged individualism" bullshit) was just what I expected. I wasn't disappointed by humanity; that ship sailed in my childhood.

 

[Heidi48]

yes and no- i work in healthcare so went to work as normal every day so no change there, i also loved having an excuse to stay at home and not socialise on the weekend.
My husband on the other hand worked in the hospitality industry and all his work went from in person to virtual. he is an introvert like me so he really struggled with all the zoom shite
I got to leave home every day but our country had a 5km restriction so he was stuck at home for few months- it definitely had a massive impact on him.

yes and no- i work in healthcare so went to work as normal every day so no change there, i also loved having an excuse to stay at home and not socialise on the weekend.
My husband on the other hand worked in the hospitality industry and all his work went from in person to virtual. he is an introvert like me so he really struggled with all the zoom shite
I got to leave home every day but our country had a 5km restriction so he was stuck at home for few months- it definitely had a massive impact on him.

if being honest i say no change, but working in healthcare care during peak pandemic has definitely had an effect on me. There are some images/ memories that will forever haunt me