Yes,
I lived a little longer, gained perspective, learned new things about myself and the world, felt something other than numb for the first time In a decade, laughed, laughed till it hurt, then laughed some more (oh my, the Mermaid rotation), remembered what hope feels like and had some of the best days of my life because of someone I met on this site.
Unfortunately it ended badly due to the varying mental health conditions we both live and deal with, still putting it in the win column.
Solid, heavy win.
For you, you know who you are,
So sorry, so very very sorry and missing the color of your unique and special light, the kindness in your heart and that beautiful smile when I could coax it out of you, You made an overwhelming and dramatic difference in this dark souls existence and the damn bird, Thank you for your gift of time spent together.
I hope one day you can forgive me.
I definitely hold no bad feelings at all towards you, every minute was precious to me, even the bad ones.
Yes, we are both in our own private hell by our own choices, I agree fully with you on that.
Now when the loneliness trys to gain traction, I look at your pictures, re read some of your words and bark at it till it heeds my warning to depart or be reacted to with prejudice.
The damn bird won't sing with me anymore and I swear all 4 dogs look at me like what the hell happened Tig ?, when I visit with them.
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