My life was great before Covid. I have always had OCD..but not like this...I was pretty normal. Covid gave me such severe OCD about germs. I still wear gloves, lysol, etc. Makes no sense. I am suicidal, but terrified of germs! My life is awful
FoxSauce
Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
- Aug 23, 2024
- 654
Yes it did. I decided to go homeschooling beacuse of extreme anxiety basically wasted 2 years and fell into depression and a ED for like a year (ofc my mental issues were way there before all that)
I didnt have any freinds and I was miserable at home. Living in fear was awful. Plus at the time we were dealing with a recent earthquake so didn't make things easier.
I didnt have any freinds and I was miserable at home. Living in fear was awful. Plus at the time we were dealing with a recent earthquake so didn't make things easier.
ThatGuyOverThere
David Benatar Enjoyer
- Apr 25, 2024
- 186
I will not state that covid had a positive nor negative effect on me, thought I will acknowledge that it had a profound effect on my daily functions. I used to be relatively out going and sociable, awkward but capable of at least holding a conversation with others, as well as a tolerance for the outdoors and anywhere other than the safety of my own bedroom. The lockdowns however gave me a justification to avoid people and spend all day in my room alone, to not need to leave my house or interact with people. They called it "Quarantine", you quarantine to protect your self from being infected, and yet I enjoyed the quarantine from people.
All of this time spent alone had the effect of rendering me almost incapable of enduring the outside world or the ability to conversate with people, it took all of those prior "Skills" away from me, and left me constantly desiring to return back to quarantine from people from values from society as a whole, and so that what I did, I never really changed by ritual, I am still stuck in a quarantine mindset.
This is why I state that covid had a profound effect on me, is that it single headedly changed my daily routine and personality, and yet I still don't quite know it it was for the better or worse.
All of this time spent alone had the effect of rendering me almost incapable of enduring the outside world or the ability to conversate with people, it took all of those prior "Skills" away from me, and left me constantly desiring to return back to quarantine from people from values from society as a whole, and so that what I did, I never really changed by ritual, I am still stuck in a quarantine mindset.
This is why I state that covid had a profound effect on me, is that it single headedly changed my daily routine and personality, and yet I still don't quite know it it was for the better or worse.
DanielDanDean
Member
- Jul 18, 2024
- 43
It's not covid in itself but everything changed in 2020
> Be me pre 2020
> Finally have a purpose, love my gf with whom I was since 2015
> Have landed in what seemed to be my dream job
> Nice appartment in southern France
> I'm quite good at my job and focus solely on providing everything she needs and would need
> Drug free
> Blind trust in the system after many years of being out of it
Fast forward to 2020 :
> Gf leaves, saying she goes to her parent's place for quarantine to be with her family
> The government reveals to be incapable of anything except sending health workers with plastic bags as protections and protect boomers
> Intense panick attacks because I sense something's wrong with my girlfriend despite her saying everything's fine
> She comes back at the end of the lockdown just to leave my 1 week after
> Feeling like life is shit
> Finding messages on the phone she borrowed me when she had no phone proving that she cheated during lockdown and was getting fucked by a rando while I was alone having panick attacks
> Be me post 2020
> No trust in the system
> No purpose
> This job, this city and everything I worked for from the very bottom seems useless
> I don't have any energy left to do my job in which I now suck at
> Stuck in an abusive relationship because I naively believed that a women could love me and not use/abuse me
Erverytime mainstream media mention covid in their narrative arc or a normie tells me how amazing it was (like a friend of mine who during quarantine fucked with a guy, smoked weed and drank wine) I try to stay calm before smashing everything and everyone in the vincinity
> Be me pre 2020
> Finally have a purpose, love my gf with whom I was since 2015
> Have landed in what seemed to be my dream job
> Nice appartment in southern France
> I'm quite good at my job and focus solely on providing everything she needs and would need
> Drug free
> Blind trust in the system after many years of being out of it
Fast forward to 2020 :
> Gf leaves, saying she goes to her parent's place for quarantine to be with her family
> The government reveals to be incapable of anything except sending health workers with plastic bags as protections and protect boomers
> Intense panick attacks because I sense something's wrong with my girlfriend despite her saying everything's fine
> She comes back at the end of the lockdown just to leave my 1 week after
> Feeling like life is shit
> Finding messages on the phone she borrowed me when she had no phone proving that she cheated during lockdown and was getting fucked by a rando while I was alone having panick attacks
> Be me post 2020
> No trust in the system
> No purpose
> This job, this city and everything I worked for from the very bottom seems useless
> I don't have any energy left to do my job in which I now suck at
> Stuck in an abusive relationship because I naively believed that a women could love me and not use/abuse me
Erverytime mainstream media mention covid in their narrative arc or a normie tells me how amazing it was (like a friend of mine who during quarantine fucked with a guy, smoked weed and drank wine) I try to stay calm before smashing everything and everyone in the vincinity
Omg! I am so sorry. I never thought about a germ..had a great job, wore makeup, went out partying. I was terrified of Covid because I took care of my sick parents....slowly got more and more afraid of all germs. When I was on lockdown, I loved it..drank EVERY day, took so many drugs (prescriptions)..Then went back to work after like 3 months...was TERRIFIED of covid stopped leaving the house at all! Sterilized everyitim I touched...took so many pills to handle it, that I destroyed myself. Went to so many doctors...got Shingles, skin started peeling off...pain everywhere. No one realized it was all from taking SO many drugs. I had to CT them and now can't function. Haven
t left the house other than when I went to work, since covid stared. Now I want to CTB
I still don;t touch germs...can no longer take care of myself
amerie
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 208);" dirty water in my cup ⋆˚꩜｡.° ༘🎧⋆🖇₊˚ෆ
- Oct 6, 2024
- 371
I know I sound privileged saying this because I was 13-14 when Covid hit and not an adult with responsibilities and a job, but I miss it. I had so much time to work on myself and develop new hobbies, though it was the first time I experienced actual depression and I've never really gotten over it. It was mild back then and I got over it quicker, but the older I get the more powerful it seems and it's starting to ruin my life and I doubt it'll get better. Life lost its color once everything returned, however. I wonder how society would be like if it never happened.
The whole world would be so much better and happier! It destroyed so many lives. I tried to CBT once from the fear of getting it and giving it to someone. I am shocked when I see people on TV living normal lives. I am also HIDEOUS because of the damage done... I can no longer even put on makeup...the meds and the withdrwals, and attempts have made me stupid, fat, bloated, crippled.
