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lyralynn

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Anyone else have a dissociative disorder and have complicated thoughts about dying when parts and alters have different thoughts and desires on living? Some parts of me desperately want to live, some(more) are exhausted living this way and then some innocent, small alters don't even know what suicide is. Is it fair for one to make the decision for the body?
 
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LongJacks

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Anyone else have a dissociative disorder and have complicated thoughts about dying when parts and alters have different thoughts and desires on living? Some parts of me desperately want to live, some(more) are exhausted living this way and then some innocent, small alters don't even know what suicide is. Is it fair for one to make the decision for the body?
I don't have dissociative disorder but I do feel wanting for everything to just end already while still having hope for a bright future, it's frustrating... certain life choices are hard to balance
 
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ScarletTanager

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Same feeling here, always weighing life and death, teeter-tottering between both. It's your life to carefully consider, it depends how you feel about your life and what your death ultimately would mean to you.
 
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lyralynn

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Same feeling here, always weighing life and death, teeter-tottering between both. It's your life to carefully consider, it depends how you feel about your life and what your death ultimately would mean to you.
Yeah i guess but it's complicated when what constitutes death and life means something different to each part. Would it be fair for me to die when it's not just me in my body? Why would one person get to make the decision for the whole body...
I don't have dissociative disorder but I do feel wanting for everything to just end already while still having hope for a bright future, it's frustrating... certain life choices are hard to balance
Definitely very hard to balance especially when fighting to decide what a bright or even okay future looks like differs so much between each alter.
 
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