Diagnosed with scoliosis, methods to end.

[BrutalWorldNot4me]

been looking for a way to ctb out. As a college student I have access to grants and I have left over money. Doctors diagnosed me with moderate scoliosis, and my discs are fully wearing out. As known scoliosis has no known cure. I don't want to continue living everyday in agony. Everyday is full of chronic pain with a messed up thoracic and pelvis. I was thinking about SN, but I was unable to find ICS. I find CCS but they don't ship to residential. :( My life's been ruined by scoliosis and rather end up in hell then continue here. Fml
I've tried hanging but I do not have anywhere high enough, jumping off my college campus but an 8 story drop is too much. Too pain in the ass to get a gun. Prescribed meds are usually hard to OD on.
I already have disc degenerative disease or spinal arthritis combined with scoliosis and a basically destroyed SI joint. God i just wanna die :/
Please DM if y'all could provide anything. Ty

 

[Kundalini Guy]

I have noticed methods like drowning and jumping infront of speeding trains/truck are usually most sucessful albeit most painful. You need to gather the courage to suffer for a few seconds which can take months or even years.

 

[BrutalWorldNot4me]

Rotated and curved. Got out of a depression and now a new one. It's twisted rotoscoliosis

I have noticed methods like drowning and jumping infront of speeding trains/truck are usually most sucessful albeit most painful. You need to gather the courage to suffer for a few seconds which can take months or even years.

Drowning doesn't sound that bad to me. It's just where do I do it lol. I don't have water nearby unless I want to get eaten by sharks lol
I love already having adhd, autism, sensory processing disorder and now adding more issues to my disability bucket list. :/ nobody gets spinal pain unless you have it/

 

[Kundalini Guy]

You could lie that you're going on vacation then go to a bridge but research online about its water and how deep it is. Am doing the same except a major ocean then drive a boat till am far away and jump in.

 

[Aisley]

This is brutal. So sorry life's fucked you. So unfair. Depending on the country you're in, you might be eligible for assisted suicide. Pretty obvious thing to say, though. So, if that suggestion flops, then i have another: you don't need serious height for partial suspension hanging.

 

[aquarian122]

SN.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a really horrific situation to be trapped in and it's beyond awful how life can torture existing beings so much, this world undeniably is such a hellish place. It does sound like it would be incredibly difficult to ctb in that situation, unfortunately in this world suicide is simply not straightforward, I hate how we exist in this anti choice society that denies people access to peaceful and reliable methods. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you desperately wish for.

 

[Departme]

Rotated and curved. Got out of a depression and now a new one. It's twisted rotoscoliosis

Drowning doesn't sound that bad to me. It's just where do I do it lol. I don't have water nearby unless I want to get eaten by sharks lol
I love already having adhd, autism, sensory processing disorder and now adding more issues to my disability bucket list. :/ nobody gets spinal pain unless you have it/

I feel for you truly, I don't suffer the same ailment but fractured my T3/4/5 and had metalwork to stabilise right along my upper spine. The residual neuropathic pain is never ending as its at the apex of arms/neck etc at the centre of your upper body movement. Yes people find hard it hard to understand how much chronic relentless pain drives you down to hell each day. Saying that I would not wish these ailments on anyone it is just very unfortunate for us and others with conditions of the chronic kind, there is no escape and then the depression takes a hold too like icing on the cake. You are not alone its minor comfort I know but others do and can associate to how this makes you feel inside like ctb is your only release and escape. They euthanise animals with these ailments yet in our case no no, sorry but human life is too precious its disgusting.

 

[BrutalWorldNot4me]

I feel for you truly, I don't suffer the same ailment but fractured my T3/4/5 and had metalwork to stabilise right along my upper spine. The residual neuropathic pain is never ending as its at the apex of arms/neck etc at the centre of your upper body movement. Yes people find hard it hard to understand how much chronic relentless pain drives you down to hell each day. Saying that I would not wish these ailments on anyone it is just very unfortunate for us and others with conditions of the chronic kind, there is no escape and then the depression takes a hold too like icing on the cake. You are not alone its minor comfort I know but others do and can associate to how this makes you feel inside like ctb is your only release and escape. They euthanise animals with these ailments yet in our case no no, sorry but human life is too precious its disgusting.

This. Only those with spinal pain seem to understand it. I know a few others with it in same position and it sucks for all of us equally. But people think it's just pain.

 

[LateForTheBus]

I empathize. I have scoliosis and degenerative discs in my cervical spine. I also have other chronic pain conditions, so I understand. I'm sorry you're hurting so much.

Also, CCS does ship to residences in the US.