Diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.

[redearth]

Mon 23rd, MRI came up with mass 3cmx2.2cm mass in the pancreas. I am single, divorced and don't want to put my friends or myself through this cancer.Odds of surving this are slim even with multiple rounds of chemotherapy and surgery.

Heading over to police station tomorrow to get License To Purchase permit. Thinking of getting Glock 19. I have never fired a gun. So, I also already ordered 10000ppm carbon moo oxide detector [

TPI Carbon Monoxide Analyzer Kit; 0 to 10,000 ppm

. I live by myself and have access to enclosed attached garage. in research phase now, combing through different methods.

so two methods, my chemo starts in 2 months. Goal is to die peacefully before that.

 

[Fall_Apart]

I am sorry for your diagnosis and I know how you feel because I also had cancer with lung nodules 10 years ago. At the time I wanted to live and I had surgery and therapy, but I came out of it traumatized. I did not understand if you were suicidal before the cancer diagnosis, or if you became suicidal because of it. In any case take your time to understand what you really want.

 

[spero_meliora]

I'm so sorry for your diagnosis and the pain you must be in - I wish you peace, whatever you decide.

 

[redearth]

I am sorry for your diagnosis and I know how you feel because I also had cancer with lung nodules 10 years ago. At the time I wanted to live and I had surgery and therapy, but I came out of it traumatized. I did not understand if you were suicidal before the cancer diagnosis, or if you became suicidal because of it. In any case take your time to understand what you really want.

I have diagnosed with Severe Depression and BiPolar for a couple of years now. Hospitalized twice for suicidal ideation. Depression can come fast quickly and in my case it is cancer

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I'm so sorry about your diagnosis. I don't know what state you live in but per chance it may be a death with dignity state. If not Oregon and Vermont allow non residents. That could be another option to consider.

 

[gottacheckout]

In Oregon you still have to pass the requirements. Basically 2 doctors signing off that you are expected to die in the next 6 months.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.