Story Devoid - Wellbutrin Destroyed My Soul

[DivorceIsMyWhy]

I sincerely doubt Wellbutrin (generic: Bupropion) has "soul destroying" properties. I'm pretty sure the pharmalogical method of action for soul destruction is not yet invented.

However many opioid addicts have discovered it through withdrawal.

This strikes me as an overly dramatic misaccounting of the side effects of a tricyclic antidepressant that is prescribed for depression, nicotine withdrawal, and seasonal affective disorder.

Perhaps there is something else wrong with you. If you have adverse side effects, see a doctor. Leave the soap opera on TV.

 

[Mybattle]

I sincerely doubt Wellbutrin (generic: Bupropion) has "soul destroying" properties. I'm pretty sure the pharmalogical method of action for soul destruction is not yet invented.

However many opioid addicts have discovered it through withdrawal.

This strikes me as an overly dramatic misaccounting of the side effects of a tricyclic antidepressant that is prescribed for depression, nicotine withdrawal, and seasonal affective disorder.

Perhaps there is something else wrong with you. If you have adverse side effects, see a doctor. Leave the soap opera on TV.

Sorry but you are wrong, plenty of people get destroyed by psych drugs!

Psych drugs (withdrawal) led me here too, people doubting psych drugs destroy your brain, body, emotions, sense of self etc etc. have no idea.

It is one of the worst things I can imagine imo because no doctor or psych or family member will understand or believe you.

Many suicides, school shootings, murders, mass shootings and other horrible things happen have psych drugs in the mix.

Anthony Bourdain had Valium in his system
Chriss Cornell, Ativan

The list goes on and on. It is even written on the side effects list that thoughts about death are side effects (which imo can turn into any thought)

Great medicine right?

 

[EvilForProfit]

I sincerely doubt Wellbutrin (generic: Bupropion) has "soul destroying" properties. I'm pretty sure the pharmalogical method of action for soul destruction is not yet invented.

However many opioid addicts have discovered it through withdrawal.

This strikes me as an overly dramatic misaccounting of the side effects of a tricyclic antidepressant that is prescribed for depression, nicotine withdrawal, and seasonal affective disorder.

Perhaps there is something else wrong with you. If you have adverse side effects, see a doctor. Leave the soap opera on TV.

You're completely ignorant on this and honestly disrespectful as fuck. Don't give advice or opinion on something you clearly know nothing about because imagine how those of us who are soul destroyed from psych meds feel? Even worse, offended, trivialized and so on.. you're like the doctors that prescribe them. There's no soap opera here it's very real. The side effects do include tardive dyskinesia which is brain damage, drug induced dementia and Parkinson's which is brain damage, neuroleptic malignant syndrome which can fry the brain, toxidrome's which can fry the brain, death, cardiac arrest and so much more. Just shut up seriously. You would squirm like a rat in a trap if you felt this way, probably wouldn't last a day

 

[EvilForProfit]

Sorry but you are wrong, plenty of people get destroyed by psych drugs!

Psych drugs (withdrawal) led me here too, people doubting psych drugs destroy your brain, body, emotions, sense of self etc etc. have no idea.

It is one of the worst things I can imagine imo because no doctor or psych or family member will understand or believe you.

Many suicides, school shootings, murders, mass shootings and other horrible things happen have psych drugs in the mix.

Anthony Bourdain had Valium in his system
Chriss Cornell, Ativan

The list goes on and on. It is even written on the side effects list that thoughts about death are side effects (which imo can turn into any thought)

Great medicine right?

Yes thank you... the mass shooting link is 100% there, the drugs have the potential to strip you of your basic humanity. Columbine survivor Mark Taylor is a good example of it, he whistle blew on psych med damage won a law suit but then ironically got taken into a ward for no good reason and was brain damaged with antipsychotics and antidepressants. If you look him up on YouTube you can see before and after. Before he was high functioning, facial expressions and good in interviews and so on. Now he sits and twitches with a blank stare, mostly unresponsive and when he does talk it's nearly unintelligible, he can't drive or function now. These meds can and DO destroy lives and the people who talk like this who obviously know nothing about them really upset me. Thanks for your comment to set him straight, I am not one to exaggerate or dramatize so when someone cynical comes on here and basically calls me reason for ctb a hoax, that's not okay. It's brain damage as other people on here have called it

 

[Mybattle]

After this I regressed and felt completely dead inside.

What I felt to be the complete and final destruction of my inner being happened on September 7th, 2010, and there hasn't been a change since (it has now been 8 months).

I've been in an extremely peculiar state for the past 8 months. I have literally lost everything inside of me and no longer have a sense of "inner being". My personality has been completely erased, along with the inner psyche I've spent a lifetime building. When I attempt to "look inside", it is impossible because there is literally nothing there. Everything that made up my specific sense of personal being is gone, including including my hopes, fears, dreams, goals, opinions, values, morals, likes/dislikes, and most strikingly, all emotions and feelings.

I have no feelings associated with past events, and no emotional connections with anything in the world. Specific emotions that defined my personal sense of being are no longer there. People, places, things and events that I thought were etched in my soul as having significance no longer mean a thing. Absolutely nothing, I can't stress this enough.

I am unable to look backward or forward, have no sense of past accomplishments and no desire for future ones. The strangest thing is, I cannot feel anything toward being in this state, as that part of me is gone too. It's like a recursive erasure of everything I ever was, am, and will be.

It doesn't feel like life is a conscious experience that I am having anymore, as there is no inner construct within me to absorb an experience on any level. I see, hear, touch, and smell, yet each of these is so devoid of emotional content that they don't coalesce into anything meaningful I can call a human consciousness. My sense of being has been replaced by a constant void of nothingness that is unchanging, 24/7, I feel nothing towards the nothingness. It is not like feeling empty inside, there is no inside to feel empty within.

What I don't understand is how a neurotransmitter imbalance could completely erase me as a human being. What I'm experiencing is not depression, anhedonia, or flat affect, but a permanent change in my consciousness that literally destroyed my humanity. All the parts that made up my being are literally gone. I don't understand how this is even possible, or what (if anything) I can do to change it. Any suggestions or advice would be
appreciated."


https://www.depressionforums.org/forums/topic/62488-wellbutrin-destroyed-my-soul/

It sounds like depersonalisation, look it up... I have it too and it is the most terrible feeling in the world. Id rather deal with depression and anxiety. This is like your soul is sucked out of you and you feel like your sense of ''self'' is gone. You are a robot or walking corpse totally disconnected from the world.

Fortunately if u have this only from the psych drug withdrawal you have a very high chance of healing. Many people coming off psych drugs experience this and heal so dont lose hope.

 

[xb243]

I'm panicking because it's been months off a antipsychotic injection and I still feel brain dead or lobotomized please has anyone recovered how is this possible I can't live like this I want to be myself

Same here. Been injected with antipsychotic Abilfy and I'm not the same since. No emotions, no personality, no love for things. Just brain dead.