Determination of me

[Elri]

I'm losing a piece of me everyday. I should just kill myself but I'm being watched 24/7 . I've been crying all day today my heart hurts. Mom sent some people to my room when i was sleeping they tried to carry me with force to a psych ward. I had no idea. I cried and screamed untill i collapsed i begged my mom to let me go. After an hour of humiliating me , they let me stay but threatened me that if i don't do what they say they will take me in less than an hour. I hate my mom now. she just wants me gone. I wish i could go to the roof and jump right now but they don't even let me shower on my own. I'm under so much pressure. it's unbelievable how one can bear. Humans are brutal. she doesn't know what she has done to me, it will end me soon

 

[healthrecovery]

 

[Elri]

This made me a little smile while sobbing lol

 

[FuneralCry]

Living is very painful. I'm sorry you are in this situation. Some people are just so cruel, no one should have to suffer like that. I wish you the best.

 

[Midgardsorm]

I'm really sorry. It was very painful to read your post.

It's not the first time I read someone being completely mistreated and humiliated just because they are want their torment to stop and it's always saddens me how people lack empathy.

Involuntary hospitalizations almost always results in more damage and offers little to none help.
You're young and having to experience this it just only makes any possibility of recovery harder.

It surprises me how in some countries, society refuse to solve with crimes with more crimes, fight fire with fire, because it only fuels violence.
I could say that the same happens in a case with suicidal thoughts. People have experience pain and torment and they think the solution to the problem is to force the person to experience more pain and torment. This only increases chances of suicide.

I hope that your everything works out for you. Bet it life, be it death. The pain needs to stop.
You deserve peace.

 

[sivvie]

sending a lot of hugs and love your way :( no one deserves to be treated like this. you're clearly in so much pain, those evil creatures have no compassion whatsoever. you deserve better than this.

keep us updated, i hope you manage to find some peace and privacy soon! <3