Destruction

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One of the ways I have found to reduce my anger and desire for suicide is by destroying things. I thought I would document it here.

Cassette tapes today:

 

[Sensei]

What's the next object awaiting destruction?

 

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What's the next object awaiting destruction?

Not sure yet, I do it on impulse most of the time.

 

[WornOutLife]

Since I bought a punching bag I don't destroy my stuff anymore!

 

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Since I bought a punching bag I don't destroy my stuff anymore!

I bought a punch bag once. I ended up destroying that too.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

I've done some of this when on my "helpful medication endorsed by professionals" that also made me homicidal. Now I'm calm but whenever I get a chance to blow off some steam, I will.

Since I bought a punching bag I don't destroy my stuff anymore!

They removed the punching bag from my gym, guess I have to use people now.

I bought a punch bag once. I ended up destroying that too.

Kicked it? You need special ones if u want to kick them. Or maybe you stabbed it lol.

 

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Kicked it? You need special ones if u want to kick them. Or maybe you stabbed it lol.

Pulled all the stuffing out, cut up the bag, threw it all away. Job done.

Got more anger/stress relief from doing that than I ever got from punching the thing, which is kind of futile if you think about it.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Got more anger/stress relief from doing that than I ever got from punching the thing, which is kind of futile if you think about it.

Makes good sense, it's the destroying that means something.

 

[TriggerHappy]

CAN'T FIND A NICE ENOUGH PHOTO OF MY FAMILY!
Thats the thing i've managed to spectacularly destroy.



(no comments about any of em being cold & distant yeah)

 

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Some books (cookery, travel, novels, etc):

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Some books (cookery, travel, novels, etc):
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Which do you like more: smashing, tearing, punching, stabbing, kicking or throwing?

 

[Lmd]

I used to do this too but then I feel bad for the value of the things I broke. I now buy cheap enjoyable things to touch or that I can easily destroy. They give me a lot of pleasure.

Nice pics btw.

 

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Which do you like more: smashing, tearing, punching, stabbing, kicking or throwing?

Depends on the thing I'm destroying. Sometimes use tools where necessary, though I'd rather do it by hand where possible - the physical exertion is good for anger/excess energy release.

 

[Symbiote]

Go to a secondhand thrift store, buy all the ceramic plates for about .25 cents a piece or goto a garage sale and pick up stuff to possibly break. Or you can come to my house and help me tear down my shed

 

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Go to a secondhand thrift store, buy all the ceramic plates for about .25 cents a piece or goto a garage sale and pick up stuff to possibly break. Or you can come to my house and help me tear down my shed

There's a charity shop near me leaving stuff out for free during the lockdown - that's where I've been picking up quite a few things from.

 

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[Fehler]

I've been through it for a long time but I've been controlling it for a while. At first, it was what I caught at the moment of anger, but of course, later it comes when I regret it and felt worse. I changed to the walls and doors, when the door of my room was not supported and it was time to remove it, I went to the kitchen door.
In the new apartment I'm in, I don't want to break anything .

Since I moved I stopped doing it because I did not want to break anything, when the "attacks of rage" come to me, I dig my nails, hit my stomach, grab, autoslap...whatever is less damaging the furniture.

Have you lost sensitivity in any of your fists? On the right, I hardly feel pain when hitting solid parts, I also have the knuckle of my little finger somewhat displaced x)

Spoiler: RIP old door of hate

And before leaving the flat where I grew up

 

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@Fehler - That door definitely looks like it's taken some severe beatings. I think you have a lot more or a different kind of anger than I do. I'm not really prone to hitting stuff or injuring myself when I'm destroying things, though I do self harm at other times, in other ways.

When it comes to destroying wooden furniture (bed, chairs, tables) I resort to using a saw, chopping it up into pieces I can throw away. I also have a thing for taking the screws out of stuff - I've removed doors from their hinges and/or taken off the handles, but not felt the impulse to destroy the doors themselves. I live in a rented flat, so this isn't really possible, though I'm sure a part of me would like to.

 

[Fehler]

I like it, it is much healthier and I find it interesting that the handling is more technical instead of impulsive anger.

 

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I like it, it is much healthier and I find it interesting that the handling is more technical instead of impulsive anger.

I think maybe I am too scared to let the anger build up too much, so act on it sooner. But that means I can't keep things for very long, so I live quite minimally now - hardly any furniture or stuff of my own, buy things second hand, etc. It helps keep my mental health in check, but it's a lot different to how most people live (and how I used to live).

 

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Sunday special - holy communion:

 

[Mentalmick]

Have you lost sensitivity in any of your fists? On the right, I hardly feel pain when hitting solid parts, I also have the knuckle of my little finger somewhat displaced x)

Yeah, my knuckles are fucked as well:

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Have you lost sensitivity in any of your fists? On the right, I hardly feel pain when hitting solid parts, I also have the knuckle of my little finger somewhat displaced x)

Yeah, my knuckles are fucked as well:

Fellas need to start palm-striking. Hard if you're really worked up but if you can think for a split second before striking...

 

[Mentalmick]

Fellas need to start palm-striking. Hard if you're really worked up but if you can think for a split second before striking...

 

[Fehler]

Yeah, my knuckles are fucked as well

What memories of those scabs. I have not had it for 8 months and they have healed quite well.

Fellas need to start palm-striking. Hard if you're really worked up but if you can think for a split second before striking...

It would be good to have the self-control to do it, luckily the dose of those anger has lowered and therefore the "attacks of rage". It must also be said that the weed has influenced it.

 

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More stuff out the door today, though no destruction as such possible, so no photos. Let's just say they were things that I'm sure others would think of as having value and would therefore probably keep hold of. They did for me for a time, but now no longer, so into the bin they go.

 

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Jumper, Unravelled

 

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Because there are so many books. Self help, poetry, crafts:

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Because there are so many books. Self help, poetry, crafts:
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Maybe what we were actually destroying for all of this time were our very lives...

 

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Keeping this one for reference:

Which now reads: