Destroying all

[Whats wrong with me]

I am in the process of destroying my life. My company and family are suddenly disposable. The hatred of life is overpowering me. I have twice tried to pull the trigger and I can't. It makes me hate life even more. I had a friend who died accidentally by fentanyl. Is this a reliable way to do it?

 

[SuicideBoys93]

Fentanyl is extremely potent, and if it's legit the smallest amounts can cause a first time user to fatally OD. Back home it's bad right now. Heroin users buying heroin cut with Fentanyl. There's OD's all the time here. Some fatal, and some not. I'm not an expert, but it definitely seems to be some nasty stuff. If you ever feel like you want to keep some stuff off your chest, I'm more than happy to listen. I check the forums often throughout the day.

 

[Jackobox]

I'm really sorry you are going through this. It sounds incredibly tough. Sometimes we do things that we know hurt ourselves and others and we can't stop ourselves for whatever reason. Life is difficult and you sound like you are in a lot of pain and I'm sorry you are going through that.

 

[TheSuicidalEccentric]

I hate my life

 

[Deleted member 14386]

Problem with fent (and all downers really) is if you live, you might have a bad reaction when rescued (nerve damage etc). I've not seen that with SN