Help Desperate to CTB but have very limited options

[sundress]

My parents have me under very strict house rules. I have no private space and very little privacy. I'm also not allowed to order things online and they also go through all my belongings.

They won't let me access any drugs on my own. I'm also not allowed to go outside on my own accord.
I don't know what I could do in these circumstances, but I'm extremely desperate for a way out.

My parents have always been very controlling and it's only recently gotten much worse. I can't stand living like this.

I'd appreciate any advice at all.

 

[Worndown]

You need a prison break.
While they are watching, there is not a lot you can do. I am very sorry.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really dreadful feeling so trapped in that situation, I wish that there's a straightforward way to just cease existing in peace. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Reuthry]

I am in the same exact situation. I also can't get drugs and stuff online and my parents locked the windows so I can't jump either. What I will do is to ctb at the course center I go, via night night, it's not that reliable but my only way out as it seems. I perfectly planned everything and now waiting for the day to come.

I am sorry that I didn't write something that helps, but I hope you find the peace you are looking for, wishing luck for you.