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ghu_123
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- Mar 15, 2023
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Sometimes our desire to feel better and get better blinds us from root problems and pains that end up influencing our daily lives without us knowing.
We begin to compromise just to continue existing normalizing meaninglessness and even encouraging it.
I've became extremely skeptical every time I feel better, trapped in a limbo between my desire to truly live, my survival instinct, fear of the future, Shame of the past and my desire to be completely erased.
No one wants to be depressed, it's such a heavy weight to curry day In day out. It's completely normal to want to escape the pain but we end up facing it more powerful then ever before. Worst yet, some of us have to face it all alone without help, without understanding, Without loveā¦..
I feel that I'm sick most days , sleeping when ever I can as long as I can. Sometimes I nap for 1-2 hours and still be able to sleep at night for 10-11 hours, only to be waken up to go the bathroom and get ready to work.
I might as well be dead in all but name. The only difference between me and someone who actually committed suicide is that I'm biologically alive. But we both have given up on life, we both understand that their is no possibility for us to find the meaning in life no matter how hard we try.
That thought is especially brutal, to be trapped between life and death knowing that this world has nothing to offer you. Nothing. There's no place for me in this world, people don't love me, they don't hate me, they just don't care.
We begin to compromise just to continue existing normalizing meaninglessness and even encouraging it.
I've became extremely skeptical every time I feel better, trapped in a limbo between my desire to truly live, my survival instinct, fear of the future, Shame of the past and my desire to be completely erased.
No one wants to be depressed, it's such a heavy weight to curry day In day out. It's completely normal to want to escape the pain but we end up facing it more powerful then ever before. Worst yet, some of us have to face it all alone without help, without understanding, Without loveā¦..
I feel that I'm sick most days , sleeping when ever I can as long as I can. Sometimes I nap for 1-2 hours and still be able to sleep at night for 10-11 hours, only to be waken up to go the bathroom and get ready to work.
I might as well be dead in all but name. The only difference between me and someone who actually committed suicide is that I'm biologically alive. But we both have given up on life, we both understand that their is no possibility for us to find the meaning in life no matter how hard we try.
That thought is especially brutal, to be trapped between life and death knowing that this world has nothing to offer you. Nothing. There's no place for me in this world, people don't love me, they don't hate me, they just don't care.