Lazy
Just let me sleep
- Feb 25, 2025
- 16
For some time now I would, at random during the day, get overwhelmed by the desire to ctb. I don't really know how to describe, it's not just the everpresent whish but the urge to do something about it right now.
Usually I would discretely clench my fists or if possible chocke myself as hard as I could (sorry if this sounds weird) but recently this stopped feeling like enough. I thought of starting with my preperations and train a bit (I'm going with partial suspention hanging) but I'm afraid that once it is readily availible I will compulsivly ctb and I can't do that to my parents, at least not right now.
Does anyone else experience this? How do you deal with it?
Usually I would discretely clench my fists or if possible chocke myself as hard as I could (sorry if this sounds weird) but recently this stopped feeling like enough. I thought of starting with my preperations and train a bit (I'm going with partial suspention hanging) but I'm afraid that once it is readily availible I will compulsivly ctb and I can't do that to my parents, at least not right now.
Does anyone else experience this? How do you deal with it?
