_Minsk
death: the cure for life
- Dec 9, 2019
- 1,109
I cant do anything, cant go out, meet new friends, work on projects which used to give my life any meaning, get out of bed and just do things. over the past few years it turned my life upside down. i envy those who simply can do some sorts of stuff, get easily motivated and do something impressive. depression clouds my mind, i cant appreciate most things, i get angry and irritated so easily, i know i used to be different, way different but here we are. it sucks, if i could have resolved it, i would have done it long ago, my entire life has turned into a quest of trying to improve stuff, get rid of depression and anxiety. but it has taken all my energy, i feel so burned out and done. how is someone even supposed to do anything except thinking about ctb, depression makes me blind to the good stuff while highlighting those things which make want to kms.. living a depressed life isn't worth living for me, have been living this kind of life for way to many years now. when will the time come, where people will stop calling depressed people lazy, or just being in their 'comfort zone'? its not like we enjoy being in pain 24/7.. i miss that time where stuff used to be not that fu**ed up..