Venting Depression is no longer separate from the rest of me

[thetruetato]

My depression has worsened to the point that it's not even a mental battle anymore. It's just a part of me now. Before it fully took over me, I occasionally used to get this crushing feeling deep in my chest whenever I got extremely depressed. Now I feel it constantly and think about suicide every single day. At this point I don't want help anymore. I don't want to be happy either, I just want to be dead.

 

[divinemistress36]

I feel the same way

 

[Rack.-]

I'm sorry that you are thinking more often about it. The same happened to me last year but apparently stabilized when classes ended and summer vacation started. Now I guess it's happening the same again haha.
I believe that the cause relies in the amount of stress I feel in my everyday life. Have you thought about the things that are causing you to think more about it?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do really relate to you. I'm not sure that I am even depressed to be honest. If I am, then I have been for 34 years! Plus- the same, my suicidal and pessimistic thoughts are a part of my regular thinking and character almost. I'm not sure I'd recognise myself if I didn't think like this.