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Lauriso

Lauriso

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Jul 26, 2022
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It feels like a good way to describe it to people who haven't suffered it. It's not only that you feel no joy, you actually feel what could be called mental pain almost all the time.

I think I could somehow make it through life with no joy (maybe), but feeling this pain and having exhausted all options is what makes me want to CTB.
 
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Maudlin

Maudlin

Specialist
Dec 10, 2021
355
I can attest to the fact that chronic pain brings with it depression. And anger. And every other negative emotion I've ever felt.

The next time it seems like some old man you know is acting like a complete asshole? Yeah. He's likely in serious pain. He might not have slept for days because of it. He doesn't want to be a pussy and complain to you about it... he just wants everyone and everything to fuck off.

Joy, cordiality, general social acceptability go right out the window.

Humor becomes dark, if it exists at all.

I'd take depression over the combo any day. I've pulled myself right up out of depression more times than I can count in my life.

I can count pretty high.

The depression that comes from the chronic pain... man, sometimes it's hard not to be downright evil.

But hey, life is subjective, right?

I hope you find a cure for what ails you, Lauriso. Whatever choices you make, I hope the pain goes away for you.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,009
All kinds of pain are so horrifying and unnecessary. It's tragic how we are able to feel pain in all it's different forms. No wonder so many people wish to ctb in a world like this. To me being free from the possibility of ever feeling pain would be ideal. Whatever humans go through right now could always get so much worse as well, in such a cruel nightmarish world the amount of pain that exists is endless.
 
makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
It feels like a good way to describe it to people who haven't suffered it. It's not only that you feel no joy, you actually feel what could be called mental pain almost all the time.

I think I could somehow make it through life with no joy (maybe), but feeling this pain and having exhausted all options is what makes me want to CTB.
You are so right, depression is just A chronic condition of being in pain. It doesn't just, "get better', it is relentless. Then when you suffer long enough, you get tired of hurting, and seek relief. This is not a weakness, this is not a choice, this is, (I'm afraid), just how our brains are wired. Much love and a few hugs to all here!😋
 
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Cryptonite

Cryptonite

In the state of shock of what happened
Apr 30, 2022
722
I've experienced both mental disease and a chronic pain, and I agree. Both conditions make life unliveable. The good thing about having both is that you no longer hope in "things getting better." You know your situation is truly beyond repair, so the decision to CTB becomes easier to make.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I'm sure you are right. I suppose I've only had moments of truly unbearable mental anguish. Honestly, it frightens me how bad it has the capacity to get. must mirror physical illness though when it impedes everything you do.

I do wonder if chronic physical pain leads to depression though. I don't see how it couldn't to be honest. What quality of life COULD you have if you were in constant agony? Not to say I'd want to pick either. I feel desperately sorry for all who suffer. Our bodies and brains seem to have been made with a sadistically high level of things that can go horribly wrong.
 
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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

Warlock
Sep 28, 2022
707
Absolutely and i just want the pain to go away.

Unfortunately, some of the things that are causing the pain are permanent so death may be the only relief .
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
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I do wonder if chronic physical pain leads to depression though. I don't see how it couldn't to be honest.
It does. I've had only depression and now I have pain and depression. I wish I could go back to only having depression but it all sucks.
 
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Nikki2020

Student
Sep 24, 2022
134
The emotional pain and mental suffering is debilitating. I cry all day long. I don't shower anymore. all I think about is memories of what I lost in my life and how I just want to die. over and over all fking day. Then I plan to ctb and I chicken out and wake up the next day deeply disappointed and suffer all over again. 💔 the pain is truly unbearable. 😭
 
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ShatteredSoul

ShatteredSoul

She dwells with Beauty-Beauty that must die.
Jan 11, 2022
67
I have chronic pain and can confirm that mental and emotional pain is just as painful just in a different way if that makes sense.
 
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willitpass

willitpass

Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
Mar 10, 2020
3,219
i can't speak on behalf of people with chronic pain as i haven't experienced it, but i think it should be treated in the same way by society. just because it's mental doesn't mean it isn't chronically painful
 
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akirat9

エクトリアン
Sep 23, 2022
386
it is chronic pain. mental chronic pain which manifests into physical chronic pain
 
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Dubito

Student
Nov 5, 2022
195
I think I could somehow make it through life with no joy (maybe), but feeling this pain and having exhausted all options is what makes me want to CTB.
For me, too. I still don't know if i want ctb or if could do it. But i would be better for me, because I cannot stand it anymore. Unfortunatly i cannot find the little hope in my head, all the caretakers around me are talking about. Does anyone have a little hope? Where can I find. But maybe thats the wrong forum for that.
 

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