Denied assisted suicide for PSSD

[kaleisgreatinsalad]

While I had planned on using my savings to pay for an assisted suicide I guess none of them will accept me due to my "young age"..... fuck that. I should have a choice of when I have had enough pain in this life. To have my sexuality and emotions chemically stripped away from me. To no longer find comfort in anything that life has to offer. I guess ill have to ctb but it wasn't something I had planned on doing. I was sure that with documentation and evidence from doctors of my suffering I would be accepted but I guess no matter the suffering if you are too young they will not help. I had hoped to have my family there so they would have a better understanding of what I have been though to get to this point. Ill just have to make videos explaining my feelings towards them and why I chose to do this. While I plan on living for another year or two Ill ctb eventually. But on the bright side I have savings to burn through so I guess i will be enjoying myself for the next while. This will probably be my last post here until a bit before I ctb but just wanted to update a bit on what was going on. I am glad this website exists so that people can talk freely without restriction.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just so cruel to me how they deny the option to peacefully cease existing with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it sounds like you've suffered so much and it's so dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[Hollowman]

How can you enjoy yourself if you have PSSD? I'm pretty sure I have it too.

 

[gameoverman]

While I had planned on using my savings to pay for an assisted suicide I guess none of them will accept me due to my "young age"..... fuck that. I should have a choice of when I have had enough pain in this life. To have my sexuality and emotions chemically stripped away from me. To no longer find comfort in anything that life has to offer. I guess ill have to ctb but it wasn't something I had planned on doing. I was sure that with documentation and evidence from doctors of my suffering I would be accepted but I guess no matter the suffering if you are too young they will not help. I had hoped to have my family there so they would have a better understanding of what I have been though to get to this point. Ill just have to make videos explaining my feelings towards them and why I chose to do this. While I plan on living for another year or two Ill ctb eventually. But on the bright side I have savings to burn through so I guess i will be enjoying myself for the next while. This will probably be my last post here until a bit before I ctb but just wanted to update a bit on what was going on. I am glad this website exists so that people can talk freely without restriction.

It's so infuriating and disappointing that they denied you. I have severe PSSD and it's my only reason for wanting to CTB. I was hoping that maybe it would be possible to be accepted by Pegasos for this condition but it turns out not. What a shame. It's so difficult to escape this nightmare.

 

[ididnotconsent]

How old are you and who did you contact?

 

[matt.7890]

Also eager to learn more about your process.

 

[kaleisgreatinsalad]

It's so infuriating and disappointing that they denied you. I have severe PSSD and it's my only reason for wanting to CTB. I was hoping that maybe it would be possible to be accepted by Pegasos for this condition but it turns out not. What a shame. It's so difficult to escape this nightmare.

Yeah, it seems they would face public outrage/ legal action if they allowed it for me due to my current age. I agree, it is a nightmare. The only time I am at peace is when I am sleeping, as I do not have to face the reality of my current situation.

It's just so cruel to me how they deny the option to peacefully cease existing with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it sounds like you've suffered so much and it's so dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

Thank you, I appreciate what you've said.

 

[gameoverman]

Yeah, it seems they would face public outrage/ legal action if they allowed it for me due to my current age. I agree, it is a nightmare. The only time I am at peace is when I am sleeping, as I do not have to face the reality of my current situation.

Thank you, I appreciate what you've said.

I was wondering if having a family member supporting your VAD at Pegasos would change their decision. "Young age" is anything bellow 50 for them?

 

[Ashu]

While I had planned on using my savings to pay for an assisted suicide I guess none of them will accept me due to my "young age"..... fuck that. I should have a choice of when I have had enough pain in this life. To have my sexuality and emotions chemically stripped away from me. To no longer find comfort in anything that life has to offer. I guess ill have to ctb but it wasn't something I had planned on doing. I was sure that with documentation and evidence from doctors of my suffering I would be accepted but I guess no matter the suffering if you are too young they will not help. I had hoped to have my family there so they would have a better understanding of what I have been though to get to this point. Ill just have to make videos explaining my feelings towards them and why I chose to do this. While I plan on living for another year or two Ill ctb eventually. But on the bright side I have savings to burn through so I guess i will be enjoying myself for the next while. This will probably be my last post here until a bit before I ctb but just wanted to update a bit on what was going on. I am glad this website exists so that people can talk freely without restriction.

I'm so sorry, that is just such a horrible and enraging effect of these anti-human drugs, and then the pushers even deny that they have been the cause, or invalidate your misery with their uncomprehending meaningless pep talks. What has been your experience of these losses? What was your life like before, and what is it like now?

 

[kaleisgreatinsalad]

I was wondering if having a family member supporting your VAD at Pegasos would change their decision. "Young age" is anything bellow 50 for them?

I am not sure about that, and possibly. But they didn't answer my question on how many years I must go through this to be approved. It's unlikely I would have any support for this from family as they have the mentality that if I eat enough whole foods and go for walks, it will get better lol. They would rather I suffer for the rest of my life than face the reality of what I am experiencing. Which is selfish on their part.... I didn't choose to be born, so I should at least have a choice of how I leave. They give pets more dignity than a human being.

I'm so sorry, that is just such a horrible and enraging effect of these anti-human drugs, and then the pushers even deny that they have been the cause, or invalidate your misery with their uncomprehending meaningless pep talks. What has been your experience of these losses? What was your life like before, and what is it like now?

Too many to describe.... I made my first post about what I experienced. I have numb genitals, no emotions, my skin is numb all throughout my body, anorgasmia, erectile dysfunction, unable to focus or remember things well, brain fog, and memory recall issues. I was happy before all this. I could feel things and have emotions and feel love for others. Now it's just nothing, I feel emotionless constantly. I could give you a whole list of side effects I have.

 

[Wolf Girl]

PSSD sounds like absolute hell and I wish I could cure it for all sufferers. And now after the medical system ruined your life, they deny you an accessable way out. I'm so sorry this happened to you.

 

[kaleisgreatinsalad]

PSSD sounds like absolute hell and I wish I could cure it for all sufferers. And now after the medical system ruined your life, they deny you an accessable way out. I'm so sorry this happened to you.

Oh, it's worse than hell. It's like being dead already but living. They theorize this condition causes dysfunction of multiple systems in the brain, such as downregulation of serotonin, dysregulated or reduced dopamine levels, as well. They've also found evidence that in some people with PSSD, it can cause damage to the tissues in the penis. Based on some reports out of a clinic in California, people have scarring and damage to the penis so severe that the doctor said these young males have penis tissue that looks like a 70-year-old smoker who has diabetes.