Deleting myself!

[Unknown21]

Has anyone ever felt scared and terrified by the idea that everything will be erased as if it never existed? Your memories, your way of thinking, your body, your mind...etc.
Although the idea of ending everything is comforting sometimes, but the thought of eternal self-erasure is scary.
Who will I be after I do that, where will I go...etc.
I know nothing in this universe except my existence, things I've experienced...etc.
It's very strange and surreal.

 

[TheVanishingPoint]

What you're feeling is just the mind recoiling against its own end. It's not really fear of "nothing," because nothing can't be feared it's the fear of losing the illusion of continuity that your brain has kept alive all your life. Once the switch goes off, there is no "you" left to regret, to miss, or to ask questions. The mind keeps imagining some kind of postscript where it can stand outside its own erasure, but that's impossible. The moment the self dissolves, so does the stage, the actor, and the audience. There's no darkness, no silence, no exile only the absence of anyone to notice. The terror belongs to the living; the dead are beyond it.

 

[kopebaldy]

Nope, in fact, I would love for my existence to be erased right now.

 

[It'sMyLife]

It's what most here hope for. We've all heard of this judgement crap. Well if I didn't ask to be created, which obviously none of us could have, by who or whatever and then I find out I have to go to hell I'm going to demand to be uncreated instead. Existence is what is surreal. There just really isn't any point to it

 

[Alexandra_]

I feel only joy knowing that death will take me someday

 

[lookingglassinsect]

I'm scared too, but at the same time, the eternity that existed before I was born doesn't frighten me at all.

 

[shiba]

For me it's the opposite. The thoughts of what would happen after I die and what people would remember of me keep me around.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I already feel like its all been erased or at least I wish it to be all erased as all the memories, experience are just a load of pain

 

[Vorty30]

I mean it is kind of linked to your SI so it's normal to think that. :)