Discussion Deciding on a date

[Pointlessabyss]

how have you decided on a date to end the misery we live in?

Or has it been a spur of the moment thing?

I've currently ordered my method, have a few things I feel like I need to sort out. But these should be completed by the end of November. My mums birthday is in December along with Christmas then new year...
I feel like I shouldn't care about these things but also don't want them to reflect on them when I'm gone..

 

[Nofaith]

It will be when I just reach my limit and can't take anymore.
I don't like the idea of setting a date because plans always fall through.

 

[Pointlessabyss]

It will be when I just reach my limit and can't take anymore.
I don't like the idea of setting a date because plans always fall through.

That's my worry though I reach my limit quite often... but when I have the means I wouldn't want to do it at home as I want to save people the anguish...

Why I've decided to do it in a log cabin enjoy the solitude for a few days before CTB I ll leave a note on the door and either the cleaner will find me or the emergency services will depending on wether they heed the warning..

 

[Desperate_Soul]

It'll all depend on the situation I'm in, really, but I'd like to die on a date that looks pretty and not near a special occasion.

I don't have an exact date: I just say today, tomorrow, next week, or whenever.
Then when that day comes, I can't do it, so I say tomorrow or next week.
For my previous attempts, it was a spur of the moment thing.
I had all I needed, and I felt ready... so I went for it. Didn't even look at what date it was.

 

[Pointlessabyss]

It'll all depend on the situation I'm in, really, but I'd like to die on a date that looks pretty and not near a special occasion.

I don't have an exact date: I just say today, tomorrow, next week, or whenever.
For my previous attempts, it was a spur of the moment thing.
I had all I needed, and I felt ready... so I went for it. Didn't even look at what date it was.

I had that moment on Monday last week, I was driving home from a regrettable encounter and purely used it as a distraction from my feelings the night before... I looked into where I could get the nitrogen bags etc. Even placed an order to pick up the nitrogen as I was ready but couldn't decide on a place...

My worry is when my SN arrives and antiemetics ( should be this week ) I ll get to a point where I ll just say fuck it. I have a few things in place this month and next to give people enjoyment with the time I ll spend with them. Hopefully then they can have a happy memory of me before I go.

I want it to be soon but I think I just keep making excuses....

 

[PatKat]

how have you decided on a date to end the misery we live in?

Or has it been a spur of the moment thing?

I've currently ordered my method, have a few things I feel like I need to sort out. But these should be completed by the end of November. My mums birthday is in December along with Christmas then new year...
I feel like I shouldn't care about these things but also don't want them to reflect on them when I'm gone..

You wouldnt be here next December so why would it matter?

 

[Pointlessabyss]

You wouldnt be here next December so why would it matter?

This is my dilemma... but would then December be tarnished by my death over the birthday and Christmas ?

I want to go with as little fuss as possible!

 

[PatKat]

This is my dilemma... but would then December be tarnished by my death over the birthday and Christmas ?

I want to go with as little fuss as possible!

Why not tomorrow?

 

[Pointlessabyss]

Why not tomorrow?

Awaiting on the SN delivery and antiemetics. Should be here this week. I can honestly say I think it will be a spur of the moment thing.

Edit : I also have a few good friends birthdays coming up along with a concert to see daughtry in October. I also want to get my finances in order house sorted etc. I would rather not leave a burden on other people and make things as clear cut as possible.

 

[PatKat]

Awaiting on the SN delivery and antiemetics. Should be here this week. I can honestly say I think it will be a spur of the moment thing.

Got ya. Well good luck in whatever you decide :)

 

[lv-gras]

have a sort of date which seems like it might work, it happens to be the date when someone admire and respect ctb, but generally no

 

[Maravillosa]

I'd like to ctb on a landmark birthday (55, 60, 65) after my mother passes away. There is something rather neat about dying on the same day one was born.

 

[Pointlessabyss]

I'd like to ctb on a landmark birthday (55, 60, 65) after my mother passes away. There is something rather neat about dying on the same day one was born.

I quite like that idea actually reason to rejoice and mourn. Although not sure if I can wait until March.

 

[Psychospazz91]

how have you decided on a date to end the misery we live in?

Or has it been a spur of the moment thing?

I've currently ordered my method, have a few things I feel like I need to sort out. But these should be completed by the end of November. My mums birthday is in December along with Christmas then new year...
I feel like I shouldn't care about these things but also don't want them to reflect on them when I'm gone..

I don't have a date planned, I just get the urge to and do it. I'm surprised I've lasted this long really, I've came close quite a few times now...
And while I fully respect/understand your wish to, I have to say Im gonna hate to see you go man. Ive really enjoyed our conversations and shared love of music.

 

[Psychospazz91]

I'd like to ctb on a landmark birthday (55, 60, 65) after my mother passes away. There is something rather neat about dying on the same day one was born.

See I would like that, but unfortunately the only sister I have left shares my birthday with me (she's 13 years older, and nearly all her kids' birthdays have been marred by death). I can't stand her honestly, but it wouldn't feel right to me either. Its not my nature to be vindictive or unnecessarily cruel.

 

[Taylored]

I would want to CTB when my Grandfather passes away due to seeing him being exploited for money and luxury while he suffers from the effects of a neurological condition as protest to inhumane treatment to somebody who served his Country. I would see it as a symbolic and meaningful way to go.

 

[Maravillosa]

See I would like that, but unfortunately the only sister I have left shares my birthday with me (she's 13 years older, and nearly all her kids' birthdays have been marred by death). I can't stand her honestly, but it wouldn't feel right to me either. Its not my nature to be vindictive or unnecessarily cruel.

I think that is very considerate of you to not want to cause your sister unnecessary pain.

 

[Pointlessabyss]

I don't have a date planned, I just get the urge to and do it. I'm surprised I've lasted this long really, I've came close quite a few times now...
And while I fully respect/understand your wish to, I have to say Im gonna hate to see you go man. Ive really enjoyed our conversations and shared love of music.

Thank you! I'm surprised I've made it this far also! I had a failed attempt about 4 years ago when I hit rock bottom but dusted myself off. I'm heading in that same direction now why I'm so content with it! But I won't fail this time ! I ll be an active member until my time comes !

 

[Psychospazz91]

I would want to CTB when my Grandfather passes away due to seeing him being exploited for money and luxury while he suffers from the effects of a neurological condition as protest to inhumane treatment to somebody who served his Country. I would see it as a symbolic and meaningful way to go.

Same, my GPA has outlived every one of his children, I'd hate to cause him more grief. So preferably after he goes, he's 87 and his health is slowly declining.
Also, the birthday thing again is a great idea if you can, because ppl who care about u will already mourn you on that date anyway. Makes it easier I think for those we leave behind.

 

[Psychospazz91]

Thank you! I'm surprised I've made it this far also! I had a failed attempt about 4 years ago when I hit rock bottom but dusted myself off. I'm heading in that same direction now why I'm so content with it! But I won't fail this time ! I ll be an active member until my time comes !

Well its a pleasure getting the chance to know you in the meantime!

 

[JustLosingMyself]

On the eve of my next birthday. ..

 

[Battered_Seoul]

Stalling desperately at the moment, but unsure if I can withstand another winter. May force the issue.

 

[Duqu]

The day my cat dies. I'm gonna take my stuff (well with some delay obviously for the anti-emetic and all) and hold onto my precious kitty and hopefully drift off.

 

[NOISYMIND]

It will be when I just reach my limit and can't take anymore.
I don't like the idea of setting a date because plans always fall through.

I'm sort of in a twilight zone where I can't tell if I've reached my limit or not. I certainly have no hope left in my and not urge to live at all, but can't feel the impulse too. It feels crap :(

 

[Nofaith]

I'm sort of in a twilight zone where I can't tell if I've reached my limit or not. I certainly have no hope left in my and not urge to live at all, but can't feel the impulse too. It feels crap :(

That's how I feel most days. It's only when I get angry I'm ready to go right there and then.

 

[45ready2ctb]

I got an rx!!! Color me relieved.

 

[Kev]

The last date I set was right before my final exams last semester, so I wouldn't have to deal with forcing myself to absorb huge amounts of information I don't care about and that won't matter because I'll be dead. Obviously that didn't fall through. I think a birthday would be a pretty good date: it's convenient because you don't have to think of a date and it's considerate because people will only have to suffer through one day that reminds them of you, instead of two (birthday and death anniversary). I've set multiple dates in the past but I've pussied out on all of them. However, now I am really right there at the edge and while I don't have a date in mind, I think my time will come soon. I'll just happen when I simply cannot take it anymore.

 

[windingdown]

I'm sort of in a twilight zone where I can't tell if I've reached my limit or not. I certainly have no hope left in my and not urge to live at all, but can't feel the impulse too. It feels crap :(

I'm just thinking how frustrating it is not to be able to just swallow a pill - a literal 'peaceful pill' - and just drift off. There has to be all of this intention and a whole routine around it (anti-emetics, painkillers, etc). It would be so much better if it were easy.

The past couple of days I am starting to think in terms of 2-3 weeks. I need to hang in there for nearly two more weeks for a family reason, and then just 2-4 days longer than that to deal with a big logistical thing. But I'm so ready to not keep waking up - it is feeling tortuous. I finalized my suicide note on the computer today - it's been a work in progress. Just some Tagamet to buy. All ready.

 

[angie]

I'm just thinking how frustrating it is not to be able to just swallow a pill - a literal 'peaceful pill' - and just drift off. There has to be all of this intention and a whole routine around it (anti-emetics, painkillers, etc). It would be so much better if it were easy.

The past couple of days I am starting to think in terms of 2-3 weeks. I need to hang in there for nearly two more weeks for a family reason, and then just 2-4 days longer than that to deal with a big logistical thing. But I'm so ready to not keep waking up - it is feeling tortuous. I finalized my suicide note on the computer today - it's been a work in progress. Just some Tagamet to buy. All ready.

id love to be able to just take 1 pill and be gone all this anti emetics n drinks etc it isnt exactly easy ,give you too much time to think and keep putting it off because its a daunting thought with all of the palavers you have to do prior .
as i said 1 pill would be heaven sent

 

[angie]

id love to be able to just take 1 pill and be gone all this anti emetics n drinks etc it isnt exactly easy ,give you too much time to think and keep putting it off because its a daunting thought with all of the palavers you have to do prior .
as i said 1 pill would be heaven sent

also have to drink 200mls of something apparently disgusting ,so theres the worry as to whether you can consume it all or not .it definately isnt easy to contemplate .
would be great if it was something you could just do on impulse quick .
whoever cones up with the 1 death pill will be rich lol