Decided to talk to someone about my future. Maybe it will help.

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I spent half the day crying silently at my desk which made it really hard to get things done at work. I can't have days like this because I need to be successful at this in-between job to get the one I really want.

I haven't told anyone at this job about why I'm really here but I'll have to eventually if I want to get back into my field. I've been on the fence about telling someone -- not someone who has a direct impact on my future but someone who's a bit of a life/career mentor and who is generally supportive. I don't know if I'm ready to have that talk, but the uncertainty about my future is killing me, so I emailed her today to schedule a meeting. It's entirely possible (likely even) that she'll tell me I need to pick a new career but that's not going to happen, not after everything I've sacrificed for this one.

Either this conversation will help or it will bring me one step closer to ctb.

(And yes, I already have a therapist, but it doesn't help very much because my therapist can't actually salvage my career, which is the whole reason why I'm depressed.)

 

[Rudi]

Sometimes things turn out better than how we assume them to turn out.
Give it a shot! Be honest with her about your thoughts and see what she says. Even if the conversation starts becoming a little negative (as in her being unsupportive for example) you could keep trying to explain on why you wanna do whatever you wanna do, maybe that will lead her to thinking about it a little more.
Goodluck! I hope it goes well

 

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Update: I don't know if it helped. She was sympathetic to my situation but didn't know any solution and said there might not be one. The multitasking thing is a sticking point.

Most of the tips I've come across on how to multitask better either say "you can't" or they give you vague advice like how to be more prepared and organized, but that doesn't really help when a lot of your job is unexpected and out of your control. I might have thought of another strategy today but I have to sleep on it and figure out if it's still a good idea in the morning.