Venting Decided to *finally* CTB

[UninformedLover]

I've finally made up my mind about it. I've been dancing around the idea for years on end, since I was a young pre-teen but now I'm serious. It feels weird to think about. Sometimes I feel relief and then other times I feel sadness. I've tried everything. I can't keep a job, I have no friends, no passions, no money, no significant other, I'm poor, my parents are awful - I mean the list goes on and on. I was in therapy very recently but after a negative experience I just decided to quit + plus it wasn't working anyway.

I can't take it anymore so I've already started preparing. I started deep cleaning my entire house and once I'm done doing that it's game over. It just sucks because there's so many movies that I want to see and now I will never see them. And waiting until after they come out isn't an option. Anyway hopefully by the end of March everything will be situated and I'll be gone forever. Fingers crossed.

 

[dhjsjdjdjdjhc]

What movies would you like to see before you die?

 

[areyousafe??]

I felt the same way when I made up my mind, relief and sadness. What was your experience like in therapy?

 

[UninformedLover]

What movies would you like to see before you die?

Fantastic Four, The Thunderbolts and Wicked: For Good. I'm a hugeee Marvel fan and I absolutely adored Wicked haha

I felt the same way when I made up my mind, relief and sadness. What was your experience like in therapy?

It was very uncomfortable. She kept asking invasive questions even though I told her I didn't want to talk about it. And then there was a situation with discussing my sexuality and I did not like how she responded to that.

 

[Dak]

I don't want anyone to die but I don't want anyone to live in sadness. You sure you can't wait until after you have a movie fest? Instead of a last meal you know?

 

[roommate]

Fantastic Four, The Thunderbolts and Wicked: For Good. I'm a hugeee Marvel fan and I absolutely adored Wicked haha




It was very uncomfortable. She kept asking invasive questions even though I told her I didn't want to talk about it. And then there was a situation with discussing my sexuality and I did not like how she responded to that.

Hopefully you didn't try just one therapist

 

[happier than ever]

Fantastic Four, The Thunderbolts and Wicked: For Good. I'm a hugeee Marvel fan and I absolutely adored Wicked haha




It was very uncomfortable. She kept asking invasive questions even though I told her I didn't want to talk about it. And then there was a situation with discussing my sexuality and I did not like how she responded to that.

do you wanna watch a couple of movies together? then we can ctb??? i dont really have anything to look forward to since i constantly live in regret and wont like what i end up doing anyways

 

[pleroman]

If you can still enjoy your movies, please do so!
Get as much out of this hell before you leave, at least. Think of it like getting your money's worth. This hellish life is already being lived, if you can enjoy those movies, do so--you don't owe it to anyone to exit as soon as possible without that.
Many of us have severe anhedonia and can't even enjoy things like movies anymore, please--watch one for us. Like pouring one out for the homies.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the peace from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[true-ending]

Hey. I can probably find you the downloads for those movies if you're alright with piracy? I wouldn't want you to CTB without having all of your affairs in order.