I snapped out of it. I'm only 24, I have my whole life ahead of me, I have to use my life to help others. I know there is more to this game of life. My mother is becoming my main caretaker and quitting her job in order to help me out of this. The power of a mother's love is something I cannot take advantage anymore. I will make it through this. It's going to be hell, but holding the Nembutal in my hands made me crumble to my knees. I never want to feel that way again, I hope all of you that have solvable problems like me can see it in yourself to rekindle your dreams and passion for life. My problems are completely solvable and my fault, I must persevere. I'm stopping running away from my problems and going to therapy and taking the medication and resolving my debt and legal issues. I made this mess now I have to clean it up.
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Best wishes from an internet stranger! So glad you know your mother loves you!
wow, really hope it works out for you and hope you find the peace and happiness in life that you rightfully deserve.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Congratulations! You are being given a second chance. Something we all wish for. You are truly blessed and have a wonderful mother.
Best of luck.
Best of luck.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Congrats! I hope everything works out for you!
thelastchicken
Member
- Dec 26, 2019
- 49
hershberger
Student
- Dec 28, 2019
- 127
Good for you! I hope you have the best of all possible lives, and that you live to be 100.
I'm so happy for you!! I really hope you get through this 100% and I wish you the best of luck!
elizabeth.luck
Eliminate your map.
- Mar 10, 2019
- 124
You are very brave! Best wishes to you.
Thereisnothing
Enlightened
- Jan 4, 2020
- 1,604
I am so happy to hear this and that you have your mothers love and support. My mother and father meant the world to me, still do, both now have passed. My life is totally empty without them, but not for one second do I forget all they did for me and how much they loved me. In this life we get very few people who genuinely care about us, those that do are priceless. I wish you so much in life, but remember we are still here for you for any help at any time. xx
C_F
Experienced
- Jul 31, 2019
- 242
Thrilled for you. Keep it up. Your mom being there for you like that is AMAZING.
Thank you guys, the thoughts still come back when I'm alone but I know I have to stay logical and start small fixing my self-destructive habits. Too much at once will overwhelm my brain, I'm already wanting to start some classes, but I can barely take care of my physical appearance right now. Tomorrow I'm going to do a deep clean and set a small goal.
Kirbster
Member
- Jan 6, 2020
- 26
You're awesome, keep up the good work, and remember this: You deserve to be happy and live the life you want.
:3 and uh..also...wha'tre you gonna do with that there nembutal...? :3 just curious
I want your N badly, but I imagine the chance of shipping it here where I live as are as likely as the chance of purchasing it from the infamous A
How come it appears users who decide against suicide all are in possession of N? It's easy to snap out of it when you know you have access to N, I guess.
With SN there's a lot to prepare psychologically for. Not so with N - no wonder it leaves room in your brain to snap out of it.
How come it appears users who decide against suicide all are in possession of N? It's easy to snap out of it when you know you have access to N, I guess.
With SN there's a lot to prepare psychologically for. Not so with N - no wonder it leaves room in your brain to snap out of it.
@Kirbster I can't PM you because you have too few postings. Can you please delete this post where you quoted me
Please don't reply to this or quote me. Please just delete the quoted post
I deleted my post and will delete this as well. You have about 6 hours to delete a post.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/decided-i-cannot-do-this.29337/post-534370
Please don't reply to this or quote me. Please just delete the quoted post
I deleted my post and will delete this as well. You have about 6 hours to delete a post.
Sensei
剣道家
- Nov 4, 2019
- 6,336
This is fantastic news! As you say, you have your whole life ahead of you. I'm confident you'll be successful solving your problems and turning your life around. :)
AlexM
To find the outer edge
- Oct 31, 2019
- 125
Thank you! My morning just begun with your awesome words!
Readytogo#Broken
❤️You’ll never walk alone❤️
- Jan 1, 2020
- 84
This is amazing, massive high 5. Great to read this
You are very fortunate to have such a loving parent, and even more fortunate that you are able to appreciate and allow yourself to receive her love and support. I wish you all the best, and hope you won't be back here, other than maybe to say Hi and tell us how good everything is going for you.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
You're young and have plenty of time to resolve the issues you face in life. You're also very fortunate to have such a loving and caring mother. Now that you've been to the brink of suicide you'll appreciate what you have even more. Good luck on your recovery!
BPD Barbie
Visionary
- Dec 1, 2019
- 2,361
This a mood for 2020. Proud that you are pushing forward and that your mother is supporting and stranding by you. Give this try all you've got, don't give up at the first hurdle, things don't come easily. You CAN do this. Good luck we're all rooting for you.
we're all rooting for you.
Timetoleave
Student
- May 8, 2019
- 100
Shero
Experienced
- Dec 19, 2019
- 274
Nem
Drs suck mega ass!
- Sep 3, 2018
- 1,489
C_F
Experienced
- Jul 31, 2019
- 242
Nem
Drs suck mega ass!
- Sep 3, 2018
- 1,489
I am keeping it as sort of a safety blanket
I'm happy for you. Just be strong. A lot of us here, including me, have unsolvable problems and that's hell. I'd give anything for a solution.
Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
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thelastchicken
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- Dec 26, 2019
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