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hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
550
Anyone else in the same situation? I feel such freedom since I've accepted this fact and that I don't have to chase after the goal of having to do everything right to make sure I live a long and healthy life. I'm living till my dog dies and that's it. I'm not having any kids. There's nothing I need or have to buy or anything I want to do. The only thing I want is for my dog to live a happy life and that's it. My boyfriend wants to live as long as he can though. But I'm proud of not being one of the normies actually.
 
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permanently tired

permanently tired

it's never enough
Nov 8, 2023
269
I concur, idk how long my natural lifespan is but I can control how short it will be 🫶
 
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Justnotme

Justnotme

I want to hang myself
Mar 7, 2022
633
If I knew for sure that my suicide would be quick and painless, then I would feel a little joy (just given the reasons why I want to die, I still won't be able to rejoice).

But since I don't know how my suicide will go, I can't even walk outside to look at the trees, plants and animals.
 
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AmberianDawn

AmberianDawn

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Jun 9, 2024
62
I can relate. I will no longer try to get money to buy things that I do not need, I do not agree with the consumer society, nor would I want to save money for an old age that I will not have, I do not want to grow old. I will not have children or a partner anymore, I will live day by day, enjoying music and art, and when the moment of eternal silence comes, I hope it will be a pleasant moment and not leave this world sad and feeling guilty
 
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heavyeyes

heavyeyes

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Oct 9, 2022
1,716
If I knew for sure that my suicide would be quick and painless, then I would feel a little joy (just given the reasons why I want to die, I still won't be able to rejoice).

But since I don't know how my suicide will go, I can't even walk outside to look at the trees, plants and animals.
I feel the exact same way 😓
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
A short life is better than a long life. Though, if I were to be honest, I never really wanted a life in the first place. I never related to those who want to live for as long as possible. I still don't relate to them. Being a human has never really appealed to me. It still doesn't
 
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heavyeyes

heavyeyes

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Oct 9, 2022
1,716
A short life is better than a long life.
This is true. Normies think I'm the weird one when I say this. They're the weird ones for wanting to live long enough to become a literal zombies on 1000 different meds just to stay alive. That sounds horrible. Likely leading to a lot of suffering too and yet they think that's also a good thing
 
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avalon_

Wizard
Jun 2, 2024
651
Me too. I feel much more at ease knowing that I don't have to struggle like this for another 10-20 yeaes. I'm not gonna let other people take that peace from me by telling me how much -or rather, how long- I need to live and what I need to experience in order to have complete life. My life is over when I say it's over! Not everyone can die at the ripe age of 84 in the arms of their loved ones; that's just not how the world works.
 
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Hunter2005

Experienced
Apr 15, 2023
243
Yeah I agree I plan to get out of here before I'm 30. For some reason the future of America is not looking good.
 
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drag201

Member
Oct 15, 2023
77
Absolutely. I don't have a single worry about not living a long life, getting married, kids etc. I am completely at peace with the idea that i will have a short life, all ai ever wanted my life to be was something I could look back at and feel like it didnt go completely to waste, and I don't feel that way. I have no ambitions, goals, dreams, or anything of that kind so I just hope I can go sooner than later. Living until elderly age is a nightmare for me
 
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twin size mattress

twin size mattress

Member
Oct 1, 2023
37
I'm not exactly sure how short i want my life to be as im not gonna attempt to ctb again until im in a headspace where in 100% sure thats what i want, but growing old terrifies me. The idea of living until my body starts shutting down and eventually being stuck to a ventilator or life support or dozens of meds is just… no thanks.
 
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Aloneandinpain

Specialist
Dec 25, 2023
375
I definitely wouldn't kill myself if I was in a half decent relationship (well unless we were old and both very sick).
 

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