Discussion Debilitating mental illness

[VeryShy]

Do you suffer from severe mental illness that's making you want to CTB?
If so, do you mind sharing what illness you're suffering from?

 

[divinemistress36]

Major depression and ptsd. You?

 

[VeryShy]

Major depression and ptsd. You?

Autism and schizophrenia.

 

[lawlietsph]

I'm not sure anymore how to call it, but major depression and social anxiety is written on my papers.
For a while I thought I have schizoid personality disorder, now I'm more convinced that I am autistic... Unfortunately in my country the mental health system is just awful, there's barely any real professionals and getting diagnosed is very expensive.

 

[Skywren]

If I were to label it, C-Ptsd, Paranoi, and Dissociation/ Derealization. Though I may have schizophrenia too, though its not as bad as my roommates

 

[popcornheart]

Yes, PTSD and Bipolar I. I also suspect I am on the spectrum but have no official diagnosis. I have had a manic episode annually in the spring and it always is so much work to "recover". This year was the first time I was alone when it happened and I've basically screwed myself beyond repair. The side effects of the medications are also absolute hell (and they've put me on all different sorts of them), but no one is surprised about that.

I had my first episode 5 years ago and honestly I cannot go through with another one. I'm pretty sure I'll CTB when I'm back home permanently in a week or so.

 

[Skywren]

I'm not sure anymore how to call it, but major depression and social anxiety is written on my papers.
For a while I thought I have schizoid personality disorder, now I'm more convinced that I am autistic... Unfortunately in my country the mental health system is just awful, there's barely any real professionals and getting diagnosed is very expensive.

I get that. Im in the US and its damn near impossible unless you're on some sort of state insurance

 

[ClownWorld2023]

Autism, multiple traumas.

Was diagnosed way too late, and only found since recently that it's indeed trauma (The "am I suffering enough?" problem).

 

[popcornheart]

I get that. Im in the US and its damn near impossible unless you're on some sort of state insurance

So very true - - and, in my state at least, you have to show proof of income to even qualify for state insurance. The care is also very poor. I live in an industrial/suburban area and it is next to impossible to find care; none of the busses come near my house. If you don't have access to reliable transportation in my state, you are genuinely out of luck.

 

[Hotsackage]

Ya been basically my whole life, all of it is symptomatic with dementia

 

[Skywren]

So very true - - and, in my state at least, you have to show proof of income to even qualify for state insurance. The care is also very poor. I live in an industrial/suburban area and it is next to impossible to find care; none of the busses come near my house. If you don't have access to reliable transportation in my state, you are genuinely out of luck.

Oh god, dont even get me started. Literally just to go anywhere you need to put several thousand into a car and a couple hundred a month to insurance. And most cities and towns (at least where I live) dont have any form of public transportation outside of Uber and maybe a bus line that only works for the inner most bit of a city

The state recognizes me as semi-disabled so ive been able to get on the Medicaid long term plan, but I have to abuse the local ambulances just to get any sort of medical care. Im envious of japans infrastructure and urban framework, they have none of these issues

 

[Dececemus]

I haven't been diagnosed but from the self-diagnosis I did, I'm pretty sure I have major depression and intermittent explosive.

 

[BirdWithoutWings]

BPD, social anxiety, OCD, Anorexia Nervosa, PTSD, MDD. I was hoping to get medically assisted suicide so my organs and tissues could be donated, but my country keeps pushing it back for mental health reasons. IGot a bunch of shit diagnosed for nothing. Now it's borderline impossible to be viewed as a competent person when advocating for myself.

 

[Metalhead]

PTSD & Bipolar

 

[ReadyToGo34]

I have a few. Including BPD, major depression, anxiety, C-PTSD, and I suspect autism but no funds to get tested. I really barely function. Oh, and severe alcoholism if that counts.

 

[juna]

Depression, childhood trauma, social anxiety. I am probably on the autism spectrum too but did not go to the doctor to get diagnosed. Sometimes I feel okay, sometimes I feel like commiting suicide. I have been suicidal since childhood, though never really went through my plans because I was too scared then.

 

[noairtobreathe1]

Just the basic standard clinical depression and anxiety combo. I was diagnosed with 'Unspecified Personality Disorder' by a psych my last hospitalization but I dispute that diagnosis personally. I think it was just a diagnosis for the insurance company.

 

[Theresnoescape]

Autism, depression and anxiety.

 

[fleetingnight]

PTSD, social anxiety, depression, and OCD

 

[3/4Dead]

PTSD, "persistent despression", GAD with SAD "bordering agoraphobia" (it has fully developed into agoraphobia since diagnosis) a couple of redacted entries I don't want to disclose, and OCD and or Autism, they couldn't figure it out and I couldn't afford to get tested for either.

The 'rule out's were all personality disorders, and since I'm an adult (in my country) that's probably accurate.

 

[img-phenix]

Never had it in me to get diagnosed but i'd figure its something in the dissociation/derelisation area... Couple that with social anxiety & whatever's causing hallucinations it's pretty hard to not want to CTB.

 

[Edpal247]

Bipolar, depression and severe anxiety. Some physical stuff too.

 

[catnowmeowmeow]

ADHD depression, pretty sure I have childhood trauma

 

[MettleSpirit41]

Clinical depression, PTSD, severe anxiety and probably undiagnosed ADHD.

 

[DazaiKinnie]

Do you suffer from severe mental illness that's making you want to CTB?
If so, do you mind sharing what illness you're suffering from?

Schizophrenia and Cognitive Decline(Dementia lite). For short my mind is having a short circuit when I try to remember stuff and my memory is so messed up I forgot people I used to know, I didn't even realized I forgot, someone had to literally tell me that I used to know those people

 

[Hotsackage]

Ya mine to, there are people in agony

 

[Sulyya]

Going for a potential autism diagnosis in the next year or so. Depression and anxiety otherwise.

 

[chronicdissosiation]

self assessing since i havent gotten diagnosed — mdd, social anxiety, anxiety which have all stemmed from my unresolved childhood trauma

 

[Daxter777]

Mdd. Gad and adhd. Anxiety disorder is a motherfucker and i wouldn't wish it on anyone

 

[mangledjaws]

Severe OCD which has ruined my life and ability to live normally