Death.

[disgusting-life]

Hmmm what word comes to mind?
For me, it's quiet ~

To finally have some of that quiet

 

[soul2realm]

Home.

 

[Abort!]

Equilibrium.

 

[jakelonely]

Peace

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

painless

no pain no suffering no problems no bad memories . i can't suffer if i don't exist as before I was born but this time forever after Death i won't exist for all time , Eternal Non-Existence

 

[Nighthawk]

Freedom.

And by freedom I don't mean just the freedom that comes with death, being free from experience, pain, or consciousness (if death truly is like that, and I hope it is), like a deep, dreamless sleep, but also freedom from many of the things that don't give us peace even while we're alive and awake.

Freedom from excessive ambition, from the constant push to achieve, from the desire for wealth, fame, approval, or success at any cost. Knowing that I will one day die makes all of that feel less important. For me, that reminder has a calming effect. It makes much of the noise fade away.

If you have lost possession of a world,
Be not distressed, for it is nought;
And have you gained possession of a world,
Be not o'erjoyed, for it is nought.
Our pains, our gains all pass away:
Get beyond the world, for it is nought.

- Anwari Soheili

Too lazy to be ambitious,
I gradually left it all up to fate.
In the sack, three handfuls of rice.
By the stove, one bundle of firewood.
Who cares about delusion and enlightenment?
What use is fame and wealth in the world of dust?
Inside my hut, the evening rain on the thatch,
Both legs stretched out in idleness.

- Ryokan

 

[persepexa]

Shame.

When people are on their death beds usually they look back at their lives. Everyone is different obviously so everyone will feel something different but for me I look back at my life and feel only shame.

Also shame because I know the only reason I want to CTB is I am too ashamed to keep going.

 

[dead dav]

Death to me means end of struggling peace no more pain what's not to like

 

[itsgone2]

Necessary

It has to happen. Soon. I have no other choice. This was a completely free weekend for me. Huge windows to finally get a gun. But fear or something consumes me and here I sit.

 

[FuneralCry]

It means peace for me, only in non-existence will I be at peace from the terrible, cruel, torturous and dreadful abomination of existence thatI just always saw as a mistake causing all this terrible harm and cruelty as a result, I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence.

For me non-existence is just all I see as positive in this existence so evil, terrible and torturous and every second is just torture to exist, the fact that humans choose to impose this existence is just such extreme cruelty, the existence of life is the most terrible, devastating tragedy which is why all I want is to permanently cease existing, I just wish for true peace from the pain, cruelty and torture of this existence that I just always saw as a mistake, all I see as beautiful is non-existence.

 

[badatparties]

We'll find out.

 

[dalemar]

Peace, relief, rest.

 

[Hollowman]

Nothingness