Death seems so peaceful...

[drownll]

Whenever I think about death, I feel inner peace. It seems to me that all suffering is gone after death. When I was a teenager I was really curious about death, I couldn't understand why people seemed to be only focused on their life when it's just ephemary, what happens after is so much more important to me... at this time i knew nothing. When I became an adult I dedicated years of my life to research what's beyond, I took DMT dozens of times, others psychedelics, meditated a lot, isolated myself completely, went on days streak of no sleep/no eating, read esoteric texts etc... I wanted to experience various altered states of consciousness to unveil the mysteries of counscoiusness, and after years I experienced things that gave me strong beliefs, almost certainty, over how certain mechanics of consciousness works.
I believe that all suffering is linked to the body, without a body, we are free of pain and suffering. Physical pain, mental illness, bad moods, etc... all will be gone. Our whole being is composed of a core (spirit, call it whatever), and on this eternal unbreakable core is built several layers of consciousness, the surface layer is the body. When this layer is removed the exposed layer would be, maybe our astral form. People who have done astral projection says that it's competely peaceful, and if ever they feel fear or other bad emotion, it's the brain that messes everything.
So I believe that after death, we enter our imagination. A lucid dream without the "glitches" caused by our brain. I can't wait for it. I always daydream about fantasy, I love creating, I created a story since 2018 and it's now very developped. I love my characters and the world I built, they feel more real to me than irl people. I hate how vulnerable we are as beings of flesh, bound by heavy rules of biology and physics. At least this life would be worth it if I was born rich in a nice place, but I grew up poor in a shithole with a monster dad, I don't have to see him anymore but my life is still terribly shitty.
The past few days I had severe urges of ctb but I can't have access to reliable methods, I'm not alone and the last thing I want is to fail and be forced to live in ward for years to come.
Death is the final relief, if only i could die on command...

 

[nadia225]

These flesh vessels we reside in constraint our actual existence (I.e soul and spirit) that is filled with light and peace I think the main reason or purpose we are here is to connect our spirit with our flesh vessels and transcend but the world makes it so hard because we are constantly distracted and infiltrated by intensive trauma, indoctrination, lack of knowing our true selves. All of which makes it nearly impossible to pass the test here if you are weren't born in desirable conditions to where you don't have to conjoin with the world you can have solitude to break away form your own sense of self and truly heal from all the dirt that the world covers us in. It's not easy to pass this test we call life I think it's one of the hardest battles to be honest many fail and lose their sense of self and only few succeed but I don't believe we escape until we can pass this test right here which is…unfortunate.

 

[drownll]

These flesh vessels we reside in constraint our actual existence (I.e soul and spirit) that is filled with light and peace I think the main reason or purpose we are here is to connect our spirit with our flesh vessels and transcend but the world makes it so hard because we are constantly distracted and infiltrated by intensive trauma, indoctrination, lack of knowing our true selves. All of which makes it nearly impossible to pass the test here if you are weren't born in desirable conditions to where you don't have to conjoin with the world you can have solitude to break away form your own sense of self and truly heal from all the dirt that the world covers us in. It's not easy to pass this test we call life I think it's one of the hardest battles to be honest many fail and lose their sense of self and only few succeed but I don't believe we escape until we can pass this test right here which is…unfortunate.

Personally I think that in this life, in this realm, we are nothing but mere tools. As humans we think that the whole universe revolves around us, but really I think that the Universe only want to expend. I gave up trying to find a meaning to our existence here. In my opinion it doesn't matter. The Universe is an unstoppable ever expending machine, maybe it has a purpose but there is no way to know.
The only thing that matters that we can do here is related to higher realms, for exemple, before dying, i want to experience astral projection and lucid dreaming. And I want to explore more my inner self in meditation. That's what carries to the afterlife.
Our identity, our body, our family, our job, our traumas, etc... all things related to ego will be erased.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

It will never be peacefull, the thought that you have failed something,that you have commited some mistake or that the person you love hates you, will hunt you forever

The only good thing is not existing, or a society that will complettly prevent you from fail and do mistake, almost utopic

 

[FuneralCry]

I very strongly believe death just to be permanent nothingness, the complete absence of everything where all is forgotten about, once we lose consciousness, that's it for us, we are gone, it certainly sounds so peaceful to sleep for all eternity. In this cruel, harmful world only death comforts me, it's comforting the thought of being free from the terrible burden that is existence.