Discussion Death isn’t scary, living is

[hodbu]

Today I went to get an endoscopy and was under anesthesia sleep for maybe 30 minutes. It was the most perfect sleep I've ever had in my life. When I woke up after the operation, I thought that it would be great if I could just go like this, and didn't want to go back to living this life again, figuring out a better livelihood, health issues, dealing with all the people I hate (coughfamilycough) and wish would just go away.

I just had a sudden wish that when I die it can be as peaceful as this deep sleep without dreams.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

I know what you mean, the anesthesia is the best part

 

[unnormal9]

Of course. Death is comforting, peaceful, living is agonizing and debilitating. That is not a skewed perception, but a harsh reality.
I remember anesthesia after having my last foot operation, it was blissful in the world of dreams. It needs to be permanent.
It would be nice to have anesthesia accompany euthanasia, making the end to death ever more blissful.

 

[Caoine01]

I also had an anesthetic during a medical procedure. The feeling of falling asleep peacefully and not feeling anything is wonderful.
It made me want to back up my suicidal wish with facts.

 

[outrider567]

Yeah I was out three hours with my gall bladder operation, anesthesia was great

 

[clownangel]

Ngl the last time I had to be put under anesthesia I was a little concerned I'd say something weird about wanting to stay there when I woke up. Life is certainly the scary part.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me the thought of eternal sleep where everything is finally forgotten about is so ideal as in death there is no more problems and suffering, nobody can be harmed by not existing as it's undeniably true that life is the source of all torment. I see so much beauty in the thought of peacefully passing away and being completely unaware of existing, I see it as being cruel how we are denied a death as wonderful as that. I always see it as being preferable to not exist personally, as there is no benefit to this futile process that is filled with endless potential for torment.

 

[hodbu]

Of course. Death is comforting, peaceful, living is agonizing and debilitating. That is not a skewed perception, but a harsh reality.
I remember anesthesia after having my last foot operation, it was blissful in the world of dreams. It needs to be permanent.
It would be nice to have anesthesia accompany euthanasia, making the end to death ever more blissful.

I wish too. It's really so horrible that for so many people in pain (physical, mental, etc.) we must suffer when we can just have the medical capabilities of going peacefully but people think we should struggle in pain for nothing. :(

To me the thought of eternal sleep where everything is finally forgotten about is so ideal as in death there is no more problems and suffering, nobody can be harmed by not existing as it's undeniably true that life is the source of all torment. I see so much beauty in the thought of peacefully passing away and being completely unaware of existing, I see it as being cruel how we are denied a death as wonderful as that. I always see it as being preferable to not exist personally, as there is no benefit to this futile process that is filled with endless potential for torment.

You put it so well. People don't seem to understand it either - even those who sympathize with my pain urge me to keep living with pain. But going peacefully into eternal slumber is what I desire. Free from suffering.

 

[Source Energy]

Today I went to get an endoscopy and was under anesthesia sleep for maybe 30 minutes. It was the most perfect sleep I've ever had in my life. When I woke up after the operation, I thought that it would be great if I could just go like this, and didn't want to go back to living this life again, figuring out a better livelihood, health issues, dealing with all the people I hate (coughfamilycough) and wish would just go away.

I just had a sudden wish that when I die it can be as peaceful as this deep sleep without dreams.

I was under general anesthesia several times in my life. But it didn't feel like anything. Not like restful sleep, not like anything. One minute they put the IV to my arm, next thing I knew I woke up several hours later with someone by my bed asking how I'm feeling. No experience of anything.

But on one occasion, I was put on morphine and thaaaaat was worth all the money. I never experienced such euphoria. I was half conscious, I could hear them operating on me and was aware of the lights, but I was like floating, my spirit was dancing...
I would take either of these two after my ctb. if not bliss, at least lack of awareness.

 

[Unattainable666]

Today I went to get an endoscopy and was under anesthesia sleep for maybe 30 minutes. It was the most perfect sleep I've ever had in my life. When I woke up after the operation, I thought that it would be great if I could just go like this, and didn't want to go back to living this life again, figuring out a better livelihood, health issues, dealing with all the people I hate (coughfamilycough) and wish would just go away.

I just had a sudden wish that when I die it can be as peaceful as this deep sleep without dreams.

My hope as well. I would love to just close my eyes take a nap and never wake up. but i'm sure that won't happen.