watereyes
les malheurs de lizzie
- Mar 27, 2020
- 737
I want to give up, definitely.
I'm alive for my dear friend @HadEnough1974, and I don't want to live him behind.
But its so hard. SN is right here in a drawer. I try to keep myself busy, I keep building stuff and drawing, but its not enough, this doesnt help me cope.
I have an appointment with a therapist tomorrow but I don't think I can keep going till then. I want to die so bad.
I hate myself. I'm so stupid. I'm an absolute idiot. Just smart enough to realize that I am. That hurts so much being aware of it. I have all the reasons to end it, and one to stay which is you my friend, but in the end I'm still suffering.
I'm alive for my dear friend @HadEnough1974, and I don't want to live him behind.
But its so hard. SN is right here in a drawer. I try to keep myself busy, I keep building stuff and drawing, but its not enough, this doesnt help me cope.
I have an appointment with a therapist tomorrow but I don't think I can keep going till then. I want to die so bad.
I hate myself. I'm so stupid. I'm an absolute idiot. Just smart enough to realize that I am. That hurts so much being aware of it. I have all the reasons to end it, and one to stay which is you my friend, but in the end I'm still suffering.