For me death truly is the only relief, I see ceasing to exist as something very positive as it's the end of suffering in an existence so pointless and undesirable, I never would have wanted or chosen existence. I wish I just stayed permanently unaware instead, non-existence is all that's ideal to me, it also makes no sense to me when people act like death is so bad when in reality all that's bad is as a result of existence with nobody being able to be harmed by the absence of everything.
There are literally no disadvantages to not existing for all eternity yet no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist, and that's why I see non-existence as always preferable. I'm tired of being burdened with this existence, being conscious and aware truly does just cause nothing but suffering, existence itself is the problem for me and death is the solution to it, I so envy those who cease existing.