nayomi
only the truth will save us all
- Jul 19, 2026
- 135
yesterday i vaped some weed and felt my will to live so strongly but then i started to remember why it is not enough for me.
i feel like there isnt something in life that i am willing to carry any pain.
my will to death is because of pain and i dont want to cope with any amount of pain , probably cant prevent it. on the other hand there is no reason for me to carry it.
i guess life will needs for find a reason to carry pain or i can find a way to not feel it? maybe just as the functional use of it and not the emotional pain lvl
i feel like there isnt something in life that i am willing to carry any pain.
my will to death is because of pain and i dont want to cope with any amount of pain , probably cant prevent it. on the other hand there is no reason for me to carry it.
i guess life will needs for find a reason to carry pain or i can find a way to not feel it? maybe just as the functional use of it and not the emotional pain lvl