Sylveon
...Anomaly
- Oct 10, 2023
- 485
Waking up feels like a punch in the gut; those few seconds of bliss immediately followed by the realisation of where I am currently standing... I can't get myself to eat breakfast. I've to eat lunch and dinner in two shifts because I can't get myself to swallow anything (it's 1 a.m. here, and I'm yet to have my dinner). The only reason I even eat is because I don't wanna break my mum's heart. I cut myself in the shower; my head constantly feels heavy, and I'm forced to sleep through the day to get it to heal. I sometimes randomly feel nauseous. I can barely focus on anything fun without tearing up, and I can't get myself to focus on my career either, which too was forced on me by this society... Sometimes my heart feels so heavy that I can't even get myself to move from point A to point B. I can't get myself to sleep at night either. The days don't even feel real anymore; I feel like I'm living a nightmare. I've no idea where time is going.
Right now, I'm just trying to spend as many happy moments as I can with my parents before moving out, because if this continues, I don't think I'll make it to the next year.
Right now, I'm just trying to spend as many happy moments as I can with my parents before moving out, because if this continues, I don't think I'll make it to the next year.
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