Culling the things you used to love

[never]

Anyone else have a list of things they used to do that they loved and now just don't do anymore because depression has just gotten worse? I look back at those things like it's a completely different person. A person that loved life and loved those things.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, not me. I never loved anything to begin with. I have lived an entire life where I have enjoyed nothing and loved nothing. Life truly isn't meant for me

 

[F@#$]

Anyone else have a list of things they used to do that they loved and now just don't do anymore because depression has just gotten worse? I look back at those things like it's a completely different person. A person that loved life and loved those things.

Kinda, I don't ride my motorcycles much anymore and my badass lowrider just sits covered up in the driveway. I've about given up on chasing pussy too.

 

[Gill_Bates666]

I used to play lots of videogames but now i dont really have any game that makes me feel anymore. When i turn on my console i just scroll through my games and the store for hours and end up not playing anything

 

[last3mos]

Writing and being creative used to be the core part of my identity.

It was who I was and how I coped, and how I paid the bills.

Trauma can take away so much of yourself that there's no point any more.

 

[ferrie]

I used to love music. I spent all my time with songs playing in the background, singing at the top of my lungs. Now I can barely stand it

 

[fleetingnight]

Yeah, hardly anything is enjoyable. The only thing worse than not doing them is doing them and still feeling sad, it feels like losing a part of yourself

 

[howlercoaster]

Anyone else have a list of things they used to do that they loved and now just don't do anymore because depression has just gotten worse? I look back at those things like it's a completely different person. A person that loved life and loved those things.

Some games, but i think its common.
I have my insterests that i can do today and get some joy but i would eventually enter in crisis again. Its not uncommon for me to "discover" something i once did and bring me a tiny piece of happyness for a while, but soon i enter in some spiral of thought and it does not make effect anymore.

 

[lost_ange1]

I feel that 100%

I was really creative back in the days; painting drawing, digital art, playing different instruments, creative writing. I wanted to go out to events that caught my intrests and see the world, game get to know people.. but now. I feel empty inside. Going to events just annoys me, I lost my creativity, i lost all my hobbies, I just try to distract myself anymore, consuming media. That's all that's left of me it feels like :(

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Sort of. I definitely had to excise some previous interests of mine before but I think they're still waiting for me should I decide to go back into the cringe pool.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I used to be a creative person, painting, writing, I was even learning to sew and was almost finishing making a skirt. My house looked nice and tidy, I was doing yoga and pilates.

I'm a shell of the person I was.

The biggest highlight lately was my boyfriend and I doing a deep clean of two rooms of the house yesterday, spent the whole day. I felt a bit better although it was such a struggle, could only do it because we went swimming the day prior. I think doing something different like that shaked my psyche a bit.

 

[devils~advocate]

Yes, Ive purged items that Ive had for several years. Ive been purging for the past 3-4 years now.

Books (200 or more) that I used for my career (college, license, etc).....I gave to a friend that is in the same profession. I know he will keep them.
Musical equipment...worth $10,000 or more, given freely to family members or friends. I have more to give to them, after CTB.
Computers (3-4) that I assembled...to the same friend in my profession
Fish supplies (must be about $1000 or more)...fishing reels, lures, etc...given to friends
I plan on at least giving away or selling all my tools (large power tools, welders, etc) This has been the hardest to purge...Ive learned that some people won't take items like these if given to them for free, they are suspicious & wary.
I will give away my clothes as I get closer to CTB, to Goodwill etc
Money in bank accounts will be given to family

Im trying to get rid of most of my possessions so my family doesnt have to go thru it all after CTB.

 

[Raindancer]

OMG, so many things, so many things.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I used to play lots of videogames but now i dont really have any game that makes me feel anymore. When i turn on my console i just scroll through my games and the store for hours and end up not playing anything

Oh fuck, I felt this.