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pudds

pudds

things get better at first, then they get worse
Aug 8, 2021
20
(posted this in both public and private discussions forums )

As said in the title, I'll be ctb with the SN method.

Got my SN delivered and was able to purchase meto where I live. What's missing for me are the recommended benzos and antacids , though I'm more focused on the former. Problem for me is that in my case, I can't get any unless I have prescription , not easy for me to get any street benzos either.

However I do have Pregabalin , but I'm not sure if it will work similarly to the benzos?

Thought about just going ahead with the SN and anti-emetics but I'm concerned it might make things more difficult for me during the process.

Would anyone have good knowledge or advice on this?
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
309
I have a similar situation and find it very difficult to get benzos,so I've considered using pregabalin instead.
however, I think the dosage of pregabalin depending on individual tolerance.since I've already built up a tolerance, I'm currently take 600–750 mg daily and find it hard to stop,so maybe I'll measure the effect of a high dose for CTB just to see.but I've noticed that pregabalin can irritate my stomach(my dose might too high.)because of the stomach pain,personally I tend to think this through more carefully.
 
Awesomefoid67

Awesomefoid67

she/it, terminally silly :3
Sep 10, 2024
788
pregabalin i think should work but beware it takes a few hours for the effects to kick in and for me personally it ends up making me really happy (when i was abusing it atleast) so that might interfere with plans but thats a very individual thing. gabapentinoids and benzos are pretty similar in terms of anti anxiety i think just different mechanisms of action and a few different effects (like pregabalin is also used for nerve pain unlike benzos)
it also depends how much you have/use
 
Topaz111

Topaz111

I can feel this body in revolt
Mar 9, 2026
195
I've been considering it too. I'm on 375mg but it does literally nothing for me (I wish I could quit it, but I got horrible GERD flareup when I tried tapering). So it would have to be pretty high for me to do anything. I might just take some hydroxyzine instead and hope for the best.
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
400
(posted this in both public and private discussions forums )

As said in the title, I'll be ctb with the SN method.

Got my SN delivered and was able to purchase meto where I live. What's missing for me are the recommended benzos and antacids , though I'm more focused on the former. Problem for me is that in my case, I can't get any unless I have prescription , not easy for me to get any street benzos either.

However I do have Pregabalin , but I'm not sure if it will work similarly to the benzos?

Thought about just going ahead with the SN and anti-emetics but I'm concerned it might make things more difficult for me during the process.

Would anyone have good knowledge or advice on this?
You can get the benzos easily on DH.

Go on tor.taxi find DH and search for "flualprazolam" which is way more potent then usual alprazolam.
It took 2 days for mine to arrive and that stuff slams like nothing else. 20-30 Minutes and you are unconscious.
 
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absolute failure

absolute failure

Specialist
Jan 19, 2026
307
You can get the benzos easily on DH.

Go on tor.taxi find DH and search for "flualprazolam" which is way more potent then usual alprazolam.
It took 2 days for mine to arrive and that stuff slams like nothing else. 20-30 Minutes and you are unconscious.
Shoutout DH
 
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charlavail

charlavail

trying to figure out the point
Mar 19, 2026
154
You can get the benzos easily on DH.

Go on tor.taxi find DH and search for "flualprazolam" which is way more potent then usual alprazolam.
It took 2 days for mine to arrive and that stuff slams like nothing else. 20-30 Minutes and you are unconscious.
yeah this is what i was going to suggest. my friend has gotten things off of the DW
 
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bruised_reed

bruised_reed

Member
Apr 1, 2026
69
You can get the benzos easily on DH.

Go on tor.taxi find DH and search for "flualprazolam" which is way more potent then usual alprazolam.
It took 2 days for mine to arrive and that stuff slams like nothing else. 20-30 Minutes and you are unconscious.

How many grams would you need for this?
 
purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
400
How many grams would you need for this?
Not really grams

You buy pills.
Buy a pack of 20 or so (I bought mine from AdventureTime. Pretty reckless from me I know, but I just self tested them and they are not laced)

Test them first.
See how your body reacts on one
Then on two
And then you roughly know what to be prepared for ^^

Each pill is 2mg.
Please keep in mind that you can not compare flualprazolam to normal one
 
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gardenhouse

Experienced
Mar 26, 2026
265
can you OD on flualprazolam? Does it knock you off fast?

Or does it still need to be combined with SN?
 
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gardenhouse

Experienced
Mar 26, 2026
265
You can get the benzos easily on DH.

Go on tor.taxi find DH and search for "flualprazolam" which is way more potent then usual alprazolam.
It took 2 days for mine to arrive and that stuff slams like nothing else. 20-30 Minutes and you are unconscious.
Do you live in the US? most of the benzos sellers on DH are in the US, i live in nz, our custom here is very f** strict, I hate this country.
 
purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
400
Do you live in the US? most of the benzos sellers on DH are in the US, i live in nz, our custom here is very f** strict, I hate this country.
Germany ^^

It is surprisingly easy to get a lot of drugs here.
Lots of swllers are from here
can you OD on flualprazolam? Does it knock you off fast?

Or does it still need to be combined with SN?
Nop. You will puke before you OD. And have a terrible headache on top of that.

But yup! It knocks you out rather quickly. Around 20-30 Minutes~ I took 4mg of it.
But yes. You still have to combine it with the SN.

I think to OD on benzos you need like 400 pills or so? It is a ridiculous number
 
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gardenhouse

Experienced
Mar 26, 2026
265
Germany ^^

It is surprisingly easy to get a lot of drugs here.
Lots of swllers are from here

Nop. You will puke before you OD. And have a terrible headache on top of that.

But yup! It knocks you out rather quickly. Around 20-30 Minutes~ I took 4mg of it.
But yes. You still have to combine it with the SN.

I think to OD on benzos you need like 400 pills or so? It is a ridiculous number
Yeah, easier to get stuff around in europe, we in nz is too isolated...and the custom is insanely ridiculous. One time I bought pate from finland, and they seized it at the airport because it contained pork WTF lol
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
400
Yeah, easier to get stuff around in europe, we in nz is too isolated...and the custom is insanely ridiculous. One time I bought pate from finland, and they seized it at the airport because it contained pork WTF lol
What the fuck kinda goofy ass country is NZ bro
 
Gomomon

Gomomon

The Mentally Loud Overthinker
Feb 24, 2026
72
What the fuck kinda goofy ass country is NZ bro
Yoyo, I've been following this thread and I found an antiemetic ONDANSETRON/Zofran and the flualprazolam/XANAX you mentioned to make my CTB plan a lil easier. Cause I got scared when u mentioned the painful outcome lolol. I am not someone who goes on the darkweb or uses Encription keys but i'm trying to figure it all out for the sake of leaving easier. Do you have any recommendations for me? it comes out to roughly 4O bucks total if thats worth the price as well. Sorry for asking so much from u lmao.
 
wannabeangel

wannabeangel

꒰ა Missing Wings ໒꒱
Mar 14, 2026
172
i personally plan to use pregabs as well, as i have a low tolerance and plan on keeping it that way through taking it cautiously, even tho it helps my pain so fucking much. i try to rely on my other meds to drop my tolerance, rn 300-400mg gives me a good drunk-ish high, 600mg in the past with low tol made me fall asleep and have the best nap ever. i have benzos prescribed to me too, so i plan to use them as well, but if you're sensitive to pregabs and have a low tolerance like i do i believe it's a good substitute, pain relieving while also easing anxiety, makes you very loopy and sleepy at high doses. i havent tried anything higher than 600mg but ik your body can get used to it easily with regular use, if you have access to carefully experiment with doses that work right for you, and waiting long enough between trials so you don't built any tolerance might be worth a shot, just do a lot of research into dosing and everything first. personally works best for me on an empty stomach, about an hour for it to start working and about 30min-1h before it's peak, and it lasts me about 12-14h
 

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