
puppet_nihilist
cogito, ergo sum
- Jan 8, 2021
- 227
I don't really know what the consequences are when you commit suicide in a country where it is illegal and when the country isn't your homeland+you don't have residency in it. Of course I'd be too dead to worry about that but I worry about my family so on top of SI, I can't ctb if I have to worry about this shit all the time too.
I've done everything. I searched a lot and even downloaded a file called the penal law and read it, nothing about the consequences of suicide was mentioned. Add to that the fact this is not my country and I'm not even a migrant I don't have residency, more like an expatriate, the outcome for my family might be even worse.
I don't really give two shits about that as I am selfish when it comes to ctb. But it's stopping me from even thinking about it. Whoever has the privilege of living at least with the bare minimum in their own country is very fucking lucky. I wish I had that I would've immediately killed myself without worries, well assuming I could also overcome SI. This could be easier but it isn't.
Any knowledgeable human being here? I am screaming in a void at this point but I'm that desperate, there's like literally no one I could ask so what does a desperate attempt matter right? Pls help if you know a thing or two. And in advance I am sorry I don't want to say where I live. Just a country where suicide is illegal I hope it's enough info to go on.
I've done everything. I searched a lot and even downloaded a file called the penal law and read it, nothing about the consequences of suicide was mentioned. Add to that the fact this is not my country and I'm not even a migrant I don't have residency, more like an expatriate, the outcome for my family might be even worse.
I don't really give two shits about that as I am selfish when it comes to ctb. But it's stopping me from even thinking about it. Whoever has the privilege of living at least with the bare minimum in their own country is very fucking lucky. I wish I had that I would've immediately killed myself without worries, well assuming I could also overcome SI. This could be easier but it isn't.
Any knowledgeable human being here? I am screaming in a void at this point but I'm that desperate, there's like literally no one I could ask so what does a desperate attempt matter right? Pls help if you know a thing or two. And in advance I am sorry I don't want to say where I live. Just a country where suicide is illegal I hope it's enough info to go on.