CTB tonight

[fishheye]

Hey thank u all for understanding the pain of another being.
My short visit here helped me make peace with my mind.
I'll reach the hotel in an hour
My schedule is
3pm Lunch
6pm coffee
8-10pm water only
11pm 10000mg paracetamol
11.20 30mg Perinorm (meto) + 400mg Inderal(propranolol) + 10mg etilam (benzo) + 300mg Rantac (Cimetidine)
12am 25gm SN (2 backup drinks)
Btw, my room is soundproof
I just wanna say goodbye and everybody eventually able to find their peace.

And if anyone have any suggestions regarding my method of schedule, please feel free to share and I value it immensely.
Thank you
Nb. I won't be around to document the process though, I prefer to be alone at that time. If I'm not seen is 2 or 3 days I request the moderators to disable or delete my account.

 

[Lone Wanderer]

Whatever ends up happening just know you'll be missed my friend. I wish you the best on your journey.

 

[catflowers]

we have a chemist in here everyone

 

[Shu]

we have a chemist in here everyone

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Peace be to you OP. Much love. <3

 

[catflowers]

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Peace be unto you OP. Much love. <3

in reference to the drugs they are planning to use to kill themselves

 

[fishheye]

we have a chemist in here everyone

Sorry I didn't get what u meant

 

[Theanswer]

Hope you have thought this out. I don't know you nor your story. Please at least read Stan's guide, you need to fast longer and spread the time between supporting meds and drinking SN.

 

[fishheye]

Hope you have thought this out. I don't know you nor your story. Please at least read Stan's guide, you need to fast longer and spread the time between supporting meds and drinking SN.

I plan on fasting for 7-8 hrs But stans guide doesn't provide time and dosage for benzo(though considered luxury)

 

[catflowers]

Sorry I didn't get what u meant

just because you were using a lot of drugs to die

 

[Euthanza]

Good bye and may peace be with you

 

[jossstick]

The peace of mind bit is really important, so glad you found that. I hope the rest of your time is peaceful, go well fellow bus catcher

 

[fishheye]

just because you were using a lot of drugs to die

Hi these drugs are only meant to minize any symptoms and they are mostly considered harder to get and a luxury item as mentioned in latest PPeH and stans guide.
It only makes the process smooth I hope, but the drugs are not potent enough to Kill a person in my knowledge.
SN is the elephant in the room

The peace of mind bit is really important, so glad you found that. I hope the rest of your time is peaceful, go well fellow bus catcher

Thanks i hope for the same

 

[Shivali]

:Herz:

 

[FML_]

I wish you the best on your journey

 

[Deleted member 31858]

I think your regimen is very well done, how do you feel? I realize that it must feel very good to feel calm having everything well planned as you have. I wish you the best and I hope you find the peace you deserve

 

[Sniffer]

Hope you find peace and love on the other side.

 

[fishheye]

I think your regimen is very well done, how do you feel? I realize that it must feel very good to feel calm having everything well planned as you have. I wish you the best and I hope you find the peace you deserve

I'm calm for the past couple of days. I must tell u the benzos really helps in anxiety. Right now I'm at a fancy hotel eating fancy food with a single shot of drink and that's all.
I have a small journal with exact timing and doses. And it makes me confident in my decision.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

I'm calm for the past couple of days. I must tell u the benzos really helps in anxiety. Right now I'm at a fancy hotel eating fancy food with a single shot of drink and that's all.
I have a small journal with exact timing and doses. And it makes me confident in my decision.

I am glad to know that you are calm, I hope that everything goes as you wish and whatever you decide we are here for you

 

[1000winds]

i wish you all the best. may peace be the journey

 

[Jrmull1993]

All the best @fishheye

i hope you are successful in finding your peace. Im sure the preplanning has made it immensely more calming for you, I know its done wonders for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that it must be a relief for you to feel calm about ctb. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering. Best wishes.

 

[fishheye]

I'll start my regimen in about 5 hrs
Main reason for me being calm is benzos or any anxiety reliefer works.
I'll be offline in about 2 hrs to reset my phone and be alone for last moment
Even now I'm happy that I'm leaving and filled with calmness.
I hope everyone will be able to CTB calmly and peacefully

 

[Forever Sleep]

Wishing you a peaceful journey and freedom.

 

[fishheye]

Goodbye

 

[rainwillneverstop]

Goodbye

I hope you find what you wish, and so the way there is peaceful.

I like your profile picture, good memories playing mario kart.

See you.

 

[peace is good]

你还好吗？很难过。

 

[Judy Garland]

Peace be with you always. I'm glad you are calm (even with the benzo) for I am nervous to take that final plunge. Life keeps throwing me awful curve balls and I'm still here. I hope you find peace wherever you are, and whichever you choose to do. Have peace.

 

[wanttodie]

Wishing you a peaceful journey

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Goodbye

May Peace Be Yours.

 

[Sniffer]

You were my first thought on waking today. I hope your soul is at peace.