Help CTB tonight

[Nobbo]

I'm planning on ctb tonight after my parents fall asleep. Planning on snorting/plugging/swallowing a bunch of heroin before I go to sleep tonight. Hoping I fall asleep and don't wake up.
opinions?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

The only opinion that I have is that I wish you had a more peaceful method to use, but then again, I don't know much about heroin and what it's like to OD on it, but I imagine it would probably suck. I also hope that you aren't doing this impulsively and that you have taken your time to plan this out. If this is really the only way you can do it and you are determined to go out with it, then I hope your journey is peaceful.

It's also really sad that your life has gotten to the point where this is the best option for you. It's sad when anyone gets to this point, which we all do eventually. Best of luck to you.

 

[Kamiotesoro]

I'm truly sorry to hear that this is the only way you see out right now but I'm happy that the suffering you have endured would finally be over. If you're indecisive about it, then I would recommend to reconsider, however you seem to have thought this out for yourself. I wish you the best of luck and peace on your journey.

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace

 

[TheGoodGuy]

If I were to ctb using heroin I would shoot it.

The only opinion that I have is that I wish you had a more peaceful method to use

It´s literally one of the most peaceful methods if you watch documentaries about heroin and the addicts talk about the times they OD´d they just fell asleep and woke up.

To be honest and I have mentioned this before on the forum I think using heroin overdose to ctb is a very underated method it is almost never brought up.

 

[Ἡγησίας]

I guess it will depend on the quality and the class of heroin you have. Maybe plugging is the best way, at least it reduces vomiting chances and has a good bio-availability. It would be great if it was china white, did you buy it on the streets or DW?

Here you can find good information about this ROA.

Think twice, don't rush and good luck whatever you decide.

 

[Donk]

wish you a peaceful exit

 

[Bct]

Wish you have a peaceful exit, but if you suddenly changing your mind, we're still here welcoming you. Good luck with what you choose.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

It´s literally one of the most peaceful methods if you watch documentaries about heroin and the addicts talk about the times they OD´d they just fell asleep and woke up.

That sounds quite pleasant, actually. I imagine that it's quite difficult to obtain though, considering the sources most people have to go through to get it.

 

[Nobbo]

I guess it will depend on the quality and the class of heroin you have. Maybe plugging is the best way, at least it reduces vomiting chances and has a good bio-availability. It would be great if it was china white, did you buy it on the streets or DW?

Here you can find good information about this ROA.

Think twice, don't rush and good luck whatever you decide.

It was white and in blocks so I still have to crush it and liquify it to plug it. Might just swallow the blocks I have 2grams

 

[TheGoodGuy]

That sounds quite pleasant, actually. I imagine that it's quite difficult to obtain though, considering the sources most people have to go through to get it.

Just use the dark net that´s how I got mine back when I wanted to see what all the fuss was about.

 

[Nobbo]

How do I plug the heroin? Can I just stick a block up there or do I have to liquify it first?

 

[Kumachan]

It was white and in blocks so I still have to crush it and liquify it to plug it. Might just swallow the blocks I have 2grams

Swallowing is not recommended - oral bioavailability for H is way lower, than say snorting, plugging. Best way is IV.

 

[Empirespy]

You need to dissolve it in warm water, it shouldn't take much. Just search for "plunging heroin" in your search engine of choice, there's plenty of articles and step by step methods.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm planning on ctb tonight after my parents fall asleep. Planning on snorting/plugging/swallowing a bunch of heroin before I go to sleep tonight. Hoping I fall asleep and don't wake up.
opinions?

I'm so sorry you are at this point.

 

[Nobbo]

Guys I'm starting to doubt myself, like it's getting very real and I'm scared. But at the same time when I'm awake and alive all I can think about is how much I wanna die. N now that I'm at the point where I can die, I just don't dare to. I don't know what to do guys, I just hate myself and my life so much but at the same time there is a part of me that thinks it could get better but I just feel so shit all the time and no medication or therapy is helping:((

 

[Empirespy]

Deciding to CTB is something you should be sure about, because you can't undo your death. It is ideally not something you should rush to, or decide in the heat of the moment. Making a concrete, resolute plan can be your first step, it is something to focus on, researching possible methods and strategies gives you time to think subconsciously. If you decide not to CTB, you can always change your mind later or, the same cannot be said for actually going through with it. Only you know how you feel, what your experience of life is, and what it means to you. Others can help by offering their advice, but at the end of the day you need to do what's best for you, and you are the one who is best placed to determine what you want.

It's OK to be conflicted, this is a big decision. It's also easy to get lost in yourself, and become consumed with self doubt, which is why I recommend planning. It gives you something external, tangible that can ground you while you get your head around your thoughts and feelings. If you decide to go through with it, you'll be better prepared to go out on your terms; if not, then you just saved your life.

 

[FireFox]

Guys I'm starting to doubt myself, like it's getting very real and I'm scared. But at the same time when I'm awake and alive all I can think about is how much I wanna die. N now that I'm at the point where I can die, I just don't dare to. I don't know what to do guys, I just hate myself and my life so much but at the same time there is a part of me that thinks it could get better but I just feel so shit all the time and no medication or therapy is helping:((

Thats what happend to me when i set a date to kill myself last year . I planned to kill myself after my exams but as my sucide date neared i had doubts to ctb. I never did.

Why do you hate yourself and your life?

It is not easy being in your 20s ok. I am 2 years older than you(22) .

Heroin is an addictive drug . If dont die you will have an addiction. People have survived worst overdoses life is funny like that.

Addiction is awful. Seen it in my family.

I am worried you are going to seriousluy injure yourself. There is covid19 it is not to good to the hosptial.

Put the bag down, go to sleep believe me you think more clearly.

 

[Quarky00]

using heroin overdose to ctb is a very underated method

Needles & rectum are not pleasant/feasible practice to many while oral is flimsy and acquiring is hard. It's not underrated -- it is really problematic. Many here are disabled, anxious, depressed and not at their best to master the darknet or self injection under SI (even medical staff require training/attempts) ; opioids OD is actually overrated.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Needles & rectum are not pleasant/feasible practice to many

It´s really not hard to use a needle and it isn´t especially unpleasant if you use an insulin needle and even if someone still find it unpleasant it is only for a few seconds before immediately going unconcious while other methods that are very popular on this site like hanging and SN will have minutes of unpleasantness.

Many here are disabled, anxious, depressed and not at their best to master the darknet or self injection under SI (even medical staff require training/attempts)

This I have to agree on come to think of it especially if people struggle with SI then heroin OD probably is not the way and the darknet can be tricky at first even I am not good with computers it took me a long time to learn the basics to access drug markets on there.

 

[Quarky00]

It´s really not hard to use a needle

Not that easy, this is a fresh example from the hospital of doctors failing to do that:

They couldn't find a vein. After they stabbed my like lunatics, since I know how it is done and learned from my mother .....

So I wouldn't say it's easy to inject heroine :)

(Heroine experienced members here have said so themselves: it requires practice, preparation, and some experience. )

 

[Aap]

do not swallow heroin.

it will be immediately be converted to morphine, which is fairly weak by mouth, before hitting your brain through liver via 1st pass metabolism. Plugging it will convert 2/3 to morphine, as 2 of the 3 rectal veins feed directly through liver.

shooting it isby far the best, but snorting is better than other options. I wouldn't encourage anyone to do anything impulsively and recognized if found, it is easily reversible.